Bye BAML, Bye NTU, Bye 2011

有多少错误重蹈覆辙。

有多少苦痛还不是都过来了。

想起来甚至还会笑呢。

这一生只愿只要平凡快乐， 谁说这样不伟大呢？

  

Apple Of My Eye

好久好久没读华文小说了。。。


真的很久。


最后一次应该是五年前的《侠客行》吧。


而且这应该是我第一次读“非武侠”作品,　而且还是“言情”类。。。连我自己都很惊讶。


不过电影实在太精彩了。 而且又有人借我这本书，所以就忍不住读了。。。

跟电影相比，少了很多夸张，荒谬的剧情效果，多了更多的内容，更多的真实吧。。。


真的是很好的作品。


经典的对白实在太多了，不管是搞笑的情节还是深情的对白，都让人印象深刻。


非常推荐给各位。


以下是一些我最最喜欢的桥段。

---

「如果早就知道一定會分手，為什麼還要這麼早談戀愛？這樣不是很沒有意義？」沈佳儀很嚴肅地說。


「你一定會死，那你為什麼不現在就死一死？」我拄著下巴，實在是不爽到極點。


「這根本就是不一樣的東西，你真的很幼稚。」沈佳儀嘆氣。

---

我越來越好的成績，有些同學以強烈的好奇探詢我使用哪一牌的參考書，或是在哪補習等等，才能創造出如此異常的成績表現。


「如果你整天被成績比自己好十倍的女生問問題，看你會不會抓狂用功唸書？」我簡單響應，這可是箇中滋味。


……然而我暗杠了「但你還得愛上她」這真正的訣竅。

---

「柯同學，你為什麼認為本系所應該錄取你？」胖教授意興闌珊。


「If you risk nothing, then you risk anything.」我看著牆上的鐘，這面試好久。


「有點答非所問喔。」另一個教授冷笑，搖晃著我的高中成績單，說，「你的成績很爛，這種程度還敢來甄試我們交大！」


「拜託剛剛好好不好！我全校排名二十六耶！」我瞪著教授，說：「如果我的成績再好一點，我就去考醫科了，還跑到這裡考管科？」毫不畏懼。


就這樣，面試結束。


我被錄取了。

---

楊過有小龍女，我有沈佳儀。楊過有龍女花，我有小耳朵。而楊過有大鵰，我有許博淳。他媽的這不是命運使然是什麼！


「走吧，鵰兄。」我拍拍許博淳的肩膀，拿了一朵小耳朵付了帳。

---

我滿腦子都在計劃要如何在畢業時給沈佳儀一個小驚喜，還有如何在畢業後與沈佳儀保持聯繫。以及，思考何時才是「認真告白」的良機。


我無聊到，猛練習「三十秒流淚」的技術。


「為什麼要練習三十秒就哭出來的爛技術？你欠揍喔？」許博淳狐疑，看著淚眼汪汪的我。


「不是。你想想，如果我跟沈佳儀各自上了大學，在火車站分開的時候，如果我可以神來一筆掉下幾滴眼淚，是不是很浪漫？她會不會更喜歡我？」我擦掉眼淚，擤鼻涕。


「你有神經病。」許博淳正色道。

---

Lost Triggers

Would you lose feelings for things you haven't come into contact with after a long time?

Would you lose something which is embeded in your genes?

Just because you haven't experience it for a long time... You would lose the ability to respond to it?

That you thought you would no longer be "triggered" by such "intimacy" again?

...

The answer to that... 

...

...

Is No.

Isn't that great news? Ha.

So You Want to Work In The Video Game Industry

After watching this video... ... No.

Forever And Ever

Standard Charter Marathon 2011

Just went for my first ever half-marathon... didn't wanted to go initially (peer pressure), and I didn't train at all for it...

Anyway... good experience I guess.

And my leg now HURTS LIKE ****!

Pace for first 9KM = 7 mins 13 secs / KM

Pace for last 9KM = 11 mins 15 secs / KM

...

Why?

Cause I ran continuously for the first 10 KM... then I walk continuously for the next 11 KM...

LOL.

What Are You Troubling About

Amazing Song, Amazing MV, Amazing Album

没有不会淡的疤

没有不会好的伤

没有不会停下来的绝望

就算只有片刻我也不害怕, 片刻组成永恒啊

Bernard Tapie Group Officially Acquires Full Tilt

Bernard Tapie Group Officially Acquires Full Tilt

The U.S. Department of Justice finally signed off on a deal that will see the Bernard Tapie Group takeover Full Tilt Poker yesterday.

As part of the deal FTP has agreed to forfeit its assets to the U.S. government, which then sold the assets to the Tapie Group.

The French firm will take responsibility for the players outside of the U.S. who never got their deposits back from the site while the DOJ will return funds to American players.

Comeback From Seclusion...

重

出



 

江

湖

Decision

"You don't have much time left. You better decide by December and tell me what you want to do."

> . <

0 . 0 

I Moved Your Cheese

When Max was younger, he once asked his parents why there was a maze. His parents didn’t understand the question. When he persisted, they told him that some questions have no answers and that the maze simply is. When he asked why the maze was designed the way it was, and why it had so many useless paths, they told him not to waste time wondering why. 




They told him to focus, instead, on learning how to navigate the maze. You don’t get to the cheese by wondering why, they said; you get to it by running around the maze as fast as you can. The maze, they explained, was a given. You work with what you’re given. It is pretty arrogant for a young mouse to think that he could do otherwise, they cautioned.

Max was not blessed with the virtue of blind obedience. Instead, he continued to annoy his parents, his friends, his teachers, and anyone else who made the mistake of discussing such matters with him. The more he questioned, the more he discovered how little the other mice understood. They knew a whole lot, but they understood very little.




...

Max was determined to discover who had moved the cheese. He was determined to discover why they had moved it. He was determined to discover why the maze was the way it was. And he was determined to change what he did not like about the maze. And so he set about it.

And a long time passed.

Thank You, All Who Love Me

When Bad Lyrics Ruin A Good Song

This song would actually be nice if they bother to couple it with some good lyrics.

Instead, they wasted this nice tune by filling it with some of the most meaningless lyrics I've ever heard.

Seriously...

The lyrics sounds RETARDED.

Stubborness

When,

I'm different from this world.

Then,

Let me be different.

Persistence is fighting fire with fire,

And if I were to compromise myself,

If I were to lie to myself,

Even if others do, I'll never forgive. 

The most beautiful dreams,

Have to be the craziest...

Right!

I am my own god in the place I live!

1 Down, 9 To Go

Fortunately, it turned out to be much better than what I expected.

Rush to wait, wait to rush.

There were some hiccups and some scary moments, but overall it was quite an experience.

Best of all, I walked out $200 richer.

Best Song Of 2011

- 每当听到她唱到那"叮叮叮叮..."我就头痛耶...

- 能做出這麼鳥的歌真是I服了U

- 神經病 唱片公司是想毀了她嗎?

Seriously...

WTF IS THIS?

歌词，旋律， 唱腔，MV, 造型。。。




每一样都已经烂到极限。。。

Listen To Mentor Once, Surpass Studying For 10 Years

听君一席话，胜读十年书

Today, I really discovered the true meaning of this idiom.

Never before in my life have someone SO ACCURATELY and straightforwardly point out my "faults".

Never.



It felt like I was stripped completely naked.

How can someone so accurately describe my actions, and perfectly explains the rationale behind them?!?!

This person is not a psychologist.

Not a mind-reader.

Not a fortune-teller.

This is a person that see through souls.



Reflecting back on what was said...

What was said...

Perhaps people who've been around me for a long time would know.

Perhaps even sub-consciously, I know it myself.

But NO ONE, not even myself, could have pin-pointed it so accurately, and so truthfully communicate it across in such a professional and positive manner.

(可能和你在一起很久的朋友知道，可能你自己也知道，可是绝对不会有人会如此一针见血，没有保留，赤裸裸的对你说）




I...

I am truly grateful.

Deeply grateful - because I know these are some things that would really affect me for in the long run, that would really impact my life.

There are no classes in the world that would have taught me what I have learned in this short 20 minutes.

It is indeed like what you say.

There are some things in this world that Google can't find.




From this session alone...

I know that...

Regardless of whether I'm still in this place 3 months later...

I would have walked out with something that I could really use for life.



Thank you so much.

Expenses!!!

How am I spending SO MUCH MONEY?!?!

I have no idea.

Never before in my life have my expenditures been so high.

It seems like every few days I'm drawing out $50, and $50, and $50, and $50... at an INCREDIBLE pace.

Each time I open my drawer, I see the $50 notes dwindles.

It dwindles at an amazing speed.

They're flowing out like tap water.

$50 can barely last me 3 days, sometimes 2.

W.T.F.

And I'm not even buying much stuff.

No luxurious gadgets and items. Just your daily necessities like food and transport + the occasional movie and recreation.

How am I spending so much?

Mayday DNA

看了这部电影后。。。

我决定了。。。

这辈子一定要去一次五月天的演唱会。。。

What Is Love?

他向她求婚时，只说了三个字：相信我；

她为他生下第一个女儿的时候，他对她说：辛苦了；

女儿出嫁那天，他搂著她的肩说：还有我；

他到她病危的那天，重复的对她说：我在这；

她要走的那一刻，他亲吻她的额头轻声说：你等我。

这一生，他没有对他说过一次“我爱你”，但爱.......从未离开过。

When it's time for us to depart, I'll let you leave first:

Cause I couldn't bear, leaving you alone to cry for me.

When it's time for us to depart, please let me leave first:

Cause I couldn't bear, to see you shed tears for me.

 

S.H.E Harmony

*1 min 15 sec!

S.H.E 10 Year Anniversary

OMG...

They've been with me for 10 whole years...

Their early albums accompanied me through every single day of O level mugging sessions.

When they became "Superstars", I went into Poly.

At their 5 years anniversary, I was sent to the Island of Darkness - and "Forever" echos through the halls during whatever free time I had.

10 years on, I still love them as much as I did.

Hope that they can be there with me for many many more years to come... :P

Tomorrow Will Be Better?

One of my favourite classic

明天会更好

明天会更糟

This is really an insult to the original.

- WTF is Ah Ya doing in the 2nd line?
- WTF is Cao Ge doing?
- WTF is up with the rap?
- Why the whole song sounds so bad?

Full Tilt Poker Statement Addresses Player Funds

Full Tilt Poker Statement Addresses Player Funds

Full Tilt Poker released a new statement yesterday, addressing the question of why the online poker room’s former customers have not yet been paid back.

The statement specifies that in addition to new money, FTP is also seeking a new management team to reopen the site and get players back their money.

...

"...Our players should know that Full Tilt Poker is fully committed to paying them back in full and restoring confidence in our operations"

To Excel In Excel

I never thought there would come a day when I have to do this...

But...

:'(

I really suck at using this.

Boring!!!

Took a medical leave this week and stayed at home to rest the entire day...

...

That's when I realized...

I no longer have anything meaningful to do when I'm at home.




I'm no longer playing any games.

I don't even read about them anymore.

I don't watch television anymore.

I don't read novels or comics anymore.

The things which used to keep me occupied when I'm at home - I don't do these anymore.




Of course, there's the Internet, but that's only fun for about the first hour or two.

There only so much you can Facebook.

So much you can Youtube.

So many forums or sites you can surf.

Beyond that, it gets really boring.

I need something else...

...

...

Viral Song - Missing You

Been hearing this song on almost every variety show that I'm watching nowadays...

WTF...

Grand Bunglow, Revisited

I was really really happy yesterday.


Haha.

It's been a while since I had such a good, heartfelt laugh.

Laugh for the whole night.

And It feels really good.

Damn freaking good.


...


Chit chat session under the skies on the balcony, playing games, watching movies, and best of all, the warm, soft and cuddly bed~~~

Hmmm~~~ Happiness just thinking about it~ *hands clasped to cheeks, pink background with bubbles



This place really contain some of my fondest memories during that period of time, and I really missed it here. I think it's been... 2 years at least?

I couldn't help but feel a tinge of sadness though...

Gone were the juicy gossips, truth or dare games, crazy antics (crazy people) and through the night "heart to heart" sessions (ok there was a minor one)...


...


Still, I was so glad to be able to visit and relive that again.

To almost feel like I'm part of something again.

How is it that life back then sucks more, but somehow I was happier?




Anyway, sincerely thank the host and everyone who attended.

I sooo wanna go there again!

Holdem Manager 2!!!

Anyone who has purchased Holdem Manager since May 1, 2011 will receive a free upgrade to HM2 once it goes on public sale.

OMG!!!

I really need this back in my life...

To fill this empty void...

Laundry Day

Hebe's Musical

A Word Of Encouragement

A few words of approval.

A positive message.

A praise.

A simple act.

Can really make someone's day.

And today, someone made mine.

Ideal Scenario

If everyone is cooperative and just do their part, the Hell Fortress would be a much better place.

We could do away with all the redundant, mundane and brainless repetitive work.


...


If only it was that easy.

Unfortunately, what you get in the end are checks to make sure people are following the rules. And then you have more checks in place to check those checks.

It's so stupid and inefficient.

But this is reality.

In the real world, you have mechanisms and policies to check on people who will come up with even more routines and rules to check on more people.

It's like getting people to write comments on source code.

You think they will bother?

You think you can do anything about it?

---

Can't read my, Can't read my
No he can't read the code I write
(he's got to love no comments)
Can't read my, Can't read my
No he can't read the code I write
(he's got to love no comments)

Infatuation

Is a weird thing.

It comes and goes without reason.

When it happens, the it's unbearable.

And then when one day it's gone, you no longer understand why you did what you did.

Review On Journey To The West

Stay Tune... It gets better and better...

萌 = Means "Cute"

坑爹 = 坑 -> 骗, 爹 -> Limbei

打酱油 = Lobo

喜洋洋 = A very popular cartoon

The Global Economic Collapse

Call Daddy

Adjustments, Recollections, Deterioration, Emptiness

1. Adjustments

In less than 1 week, I've managed to accomplish what I couldn't do in the past 2 months.

Changed my "lights out" time from 3am to 12pm.

And breakfast/lunch/dinner from "12pm/6pm/1am" to "8am/1pm/7pm"...



2. Recollections

Learnt/Recalled some interesting stuffs from the past, like "How do you loop without using a loop"...



3. Deterioration


20th Jun 2011 - 13 min 27 sec

23rd Jun 2011 - 13 min 01 sec

28th Jun 2011 - 13 min 14 sec

29th Jun 2011 - 13 min 39 sec

2th Jul 2011 - 13 min 00 sec

9th Jul 2011 - 14 min 17 sec

It seems like going for a run once a week is not enough to make up for the deterioration suffered for 5 days...

Haizz...

If only I had one more month...

:'(

It seems like RT is inevitable...

...



4. Emptiness

I missed FTP.

I feel empty now with it gone from my life.

Heard some good news.

Hope it's true.

This Marks A New Day

Today marks the day when I would never again be sitting in a lecture hall, dozing off to the monotonous voice of a lecturer.

Today marks the day I take my first step into the working world.

A world that I would have to remain in for the next, who knows, 40 years of my life.

Perhaps until the day I take my last breath.

Until the day I die.

...

...

As I look back on my 20 years of education...

I know...

Never would I be able to return to being a student again.

Never would I be able to experience the joy of being a student again.

Never...

Ever...

I can't turn back now...

Yes...

The life of a student ends here.

The 2nd half of my life starts now.

The long chase for material goods, cars, wealth, fame, status, HDB flats...

...

Ha...

Ha...

Ha...

Ａ laughable goal, yet one you can't find any fault with.
  

RIP, FTP

Looks like it's over...

That  last glimmer of hope...

Like a candle in a wind...

It's final light is flickering out before my very eyes...

Everything will become nothing more than a dream...

 

Great General of Kay

Preparation Results

27th May 2011 - 18 min 37 sec

30th May 2011 - 15 min 34 sec

1st Jun 2011 - 16 min 41 sec

3rd Jun 2011 - 15 min 18 sec

6th Jun 2011 - 14 min 51 sec

9th Jun 2011 - 14 min 32 sec

10th Jun 2011 - 14 min 02 sec

16th Jun 2011 - 13 min 59 sec

19th Jun 2011 - 13 min 21 sec


Pathetic

Almost 10 sessions and I'm still NOT EVEN CLOSE.

Really have zero confident to go sign up for the battle.

Is this it?

Am I destined to fail?

Is this the end?

---

Are you there, Great General Cannibal?

Everytime I fought and everytime I wanted to give up, I feel your presence.

Your "words of encouragement" and "constant nagging" never fail to resurface from the deepest corners of my memories, and pushed me to keep going forward...

...

I still vivdly remember the day when your empowering aura unleashed my potential, and allowed me to score the greatest victory in my life.

A victory so great even I could not believe.

An accomplishment that I have never since be able to recreate.



Oh Great General of the Kay Kingdom!!!

Please...

Please grant me your powers once again.

Grant me your powers to tide through it again this time.

Grant me your powers that can make me soar like the wind once again.

Empower me with unlimited energy and endurance.

Empower me with the will to overcome all fatigue and exhaustion.

Bestow upon me your greatness once again.

National Vertical Marathon 2011

My first athletic medal!

Let's set a goal.

I have to earn at least one of these every year.

Dedicated To My FYP Supervisor

This post is dedicated to my FYP Supervisor.

Being able to work on this project is the best thing that happened to me in my university academic life.

It is, to the best of my knowledge, one of the most "fulfilling yet and un-troubling" project.

I am truly undeserving of what you've given me.

Thank you so much.

I will definitely direct all future juniors choosing their FYP here.

Projects here have my *official seal of approval*.

Song Status II

A list generated in the past 4 months, continued from the previous one.


21. 我找不了，我到不了，你所谓的，那考得很好~ 我就快要疯掉，知不知道，若你懂我，这一秒~




22. 傻瓜, 我们都一样, 被考试伤了又伤， 相信这次它不一样, 却又再一次受伤~傻瓜, 我们都一样, 考很烂却不投降， 相信付出会有代价, 代价只是一句傻瓜~ :'(




23. This is school, truly, where I know I must be. Where exams wait for me, where assignments always grow




24. 我Fail了Fail了就好，这时候谁都别来安慰拥抱。。。就让我一个人去读到，受不了，MUG到，快疯掉, 死不了就还好~~~ :`(




25. 当我知道考试快来~~~ 我的心底泛起许多无奈。。。这时候我该开始努力读书, 我会不停的等待, 等待着未来 (放弃了, 放弃了, 放弃了无奈)
(当我知道你们乱来~~~有了baby有了小孩~~~在我心里放不下的也该释怀， 以后我就自己来~~~)




26. 转身离开，FAIL了说不出来。。。我会考那么坏，只是一场意外。。。




27. 大年初一头一天, 家家户户过新年~只有我在FYP，我在FYP~七个隆咚锵咚锵，I Feel Sho Moddy~~~




28. 我知道你我都没有错， 只是 FYP 没有做。信誓旦旦给了承诺， 却被时间扑了空。 我知道我们都没有错， 只是 FAIL 了会比较难过。 最烂的成绩回忆里待续 :`(




29. 后来， 我总算发现了，钱包不在，可惜它，早已远去， 消失在人海~~~后来， 终于在眼泪中明白。。。 我的钱，一旦错过就不再~~~ :(




30.  因为不了解所以很伤心, 听不懂只好听着风的呼吸; 却有种叫做考试的东西，说没问题，最后我们会MATI




31. 在我心上用力的开一抢, 让一切归零在这声巨响。。。如果test是说什么, 都不能pass, 我不挣扎, 反正我也。。。没差～～～ ;'(




32. 听我说，爱是对的，错的是我们。。。听我说，mug是对的，slack的是我们。。。




33. 如今你， 考了F回来，叫我如何接受这安排~~~




34. I m crazy over u u u u u, 如此疯狂的每天读读读读读, I m going crazy over u u u u u~




35. 哀悼~ 哀悼~ 哀悼脑海里有一万个题~ 快爆掉~




36. 五月的天, 刚诞生的夏天~我们之间, 才完成的考卷~我的答案里面, 好多我的天~




37.夜太美, 尽管再危险, 总有人黑著眼眶熬著夜~ F Y P, 虽然是很SIAN, 我也要黑著眼眶熬著夜~




38. 你要相信，相信我们能够做完FYP，幸福和快乐是结局~~~  你要相信，相信我们会像童话故事里，幸福和快乐是结局~~~ :'(




39. 喔, 第一次我, 考很烂的时候, 呼吸难过, 心不停的颤抖。喔, 第一次我, 来南大的时候, 失去方向, 不知该往哪儿走。那是第一次搭179, PIONEER 都还没有。




40. 我为你付出的青春这么多年，换来了一句谢谢你的成全。我在NTU 苦读了这么多年，换来了欠他们一大堆的钱。

Chinese Rhymer!!!

WEE!!!

Took some time to materialize an idea that was conceived last year.

Really happy with the results!

Regret

Would you rather marry someone who loves you or someone that you love?


If you marry the one who love you, years later you'll regret not marrying someone you love.

If you marry the one who you love, years later you'll regret not choosing the person who loved you.







Would you spend a lot of money to do something you love now, or save the money for a rainy day?


If you spend the money, years later when you need the cash you'll regret why you didn't save enough.

If you save the money, years later you'll regret why you didn't do something you want when you were young.






Would you rather choose a high paying job that you don't like or a low paying job that you like?


If you choose the high paying job, years later you'll regret why you didn't go for something you love.

If you choose the job you love, years later you'll regret why you didn't get a job that can give you a better life.

Conclusion: No matter what you do, you'll end up with regrets.

I Thought...

我以为。。。

他让你红了眼眶,你却还笑着原谅

原来你早就想好你要留在谁的身旁

 

And Now, I Need To

1. Nurse myself back to health.

This is really causing me a lot of distress and I really need to find out what's wrong.

I will try really hard to sleep before 3am every night.

And I will try to eat more regularly and healthily.




2. IPPT

Last year, I took 4 months to go from 15min to 12min.

This time round, I got barely 1 month, so I think it's a lost cause.

Still, I really really don't want to fail.

So I promise myself that I will exercise at least once every other day as long as my schedule permit.




3. FTP

I need to clear the dozen of free tickets they've given me (which I have no time to play)

Figure out a way to spend the 70K points accumulated...

And see how far it can take me...
 

Bonus, Bonus & More Bonus!

Thanks for the $500 cash bonus!

Thanks for the additional $60 free cash game buy-in!

Thanks for the free ticket to a $20,000 tournament!

But... when can I cash out?!

First Paper, Last Paper

30 months ago... I sat for my first paper in NTU... and it was a nightmare...

30 months later... I sat for my final paper in NTU... and probably the last of my academic life...

And I got pwned again...

=.=

GERD?

Gastroesophageal reflux disease (GERD) is a condition in which the stomach contents (food or liquid) leak backwards from the stomach into the esophagus (the tube from the mouth to the stomach). This action can irritate the esophagus, causing heartburn and other symptoms.

When you eat, food passes from the throat to the stomach through the esophagus (also called the food pipe or swallowing tube). Once food is in the stomach, a ring of muscle fibers prevents food from moving backward into the esophagus.

If this muscle doesn't close well, food, liquid, and stomach acid can leak back into the esophagus. This is called reflux or gastroesophageal reflux. This reflux may cause symptoms, or can even damage the esophagus.

We Thank You For Your Patience...

One week passed...

Two week passed...

Three week passed...

The Final Battle

Finally, in a few weeks time, everything will be over.

Conquered 18 years of the Singapore Education System.

The final battle.

"Sons of Singapore! Of NTU! My Brothers!!!"

I see in your eyes the same fear that would take the heart of me! 

A day may come when the courage of man fails, when we forsake our studies and break all bonds of fellowship. 

But it is not this day. 

An hour of wolves and shattered shields when the exams comes crashing down! 

But it is not this day!

This day we fight!!!

 

By all that you hold dear on your audit, I bid you stand - Men, of the West!!!

Endless Wait Cycle

I thought I can finally upgrade my Conroe after 5 years...

But now they're going to release something known as "Sandy Bridge-E" in Q4 2011,

which will have 6 cores and also a new socket (i.e need to change motherboard)...

But if I wait until Q4 2011... then I might as well wait 22nm Ivy Bridge coming in early 2012, which:

"there will be support for DirectX 11 and OpenCL 1.1, and Intel is targeting a 30 percent graphics performance and 20 percent overall performance boost compared to Sandy Bridge. It seems that Ivy Bridge might get 16 graphics execution units (4 more than Sandy Bridge). Ivy Bridge will also support PCI Express 3.0.^"

...

As you can see, it's an endless wait cycle.

Not to mention that my funds are now "frozen" by the US government... 

 ...

Only Reminds Me Of You

I see you, beside me
It's only a dream
A vision of what used to be
The laughter, the sorrow
Pictures in time
Fading to memories

I tried to run from your side

But each place I hide

It only reminds me of you

When I turn out all the light

Even the night

It only reminds me of you 

The Final Game - Red Rider

This is it guys.

My last, and final game project...

My 告别作...

...At least, for anytime in the foreseeable future...

Golden Period

For many things in this world, there is what we call a "golden period"

Whether it comes to resolving conflicts...

clearing up misunderstandings...

confessing your love...

seizing an opportunity...

...

etc...

Once that period is over...

It'll be too late.

Too late to salvage the situation.

You can never go back in time.

And things will never be the same again...

Of course, the same goes for medication and treatment.

Don't let it become an everlasting (永垂不朽) regret!!!


 

It's Saturday!!!

And it's time to eat fried rice!!!

Sweet Potato...

Don't think I've ever been more "emotionally invested" in a TV Show then this...

This is the first Korean TV show I've seen.

This is the best "idol drama" I've seen...

For the past year, this show has never failed to put a smile on my face.


I look forward to the short 20 minutes of time every weekend.


To me, this show is more than just entertainment; it's an inspiration.




And after I've grown so attached to them, they have to take them away.

Now, my weekends will never be the same again.

:(




 

I cried in my heart as I watched the last episode.

Links:

Chinese Subs

English Subs

Go-Chun

It's Friday!!!

If this is the worst Chinese song lyrics...

then this gotta be the worst English song lyrics...

PS: Read the Youtube comments!

Finally!!!

On 28th March 2011, 2:30am...

I have finally completed my FYP report!!!

As I clicked the print button...

I'm overwhelmed with emotions.

I really want to cry now.


REALLY. 

This must be one of the greatest moment of my University life!!!

Chasing A Dying Dream

There was a time when my greatest dream was to enter the game industry.

When I graduated from SP, I really thought I could do that.

That I could do something that I really love in my life.

Something that I enjoy since I was 4 years old.

I dream that one day, I can make games as inspiring and addictive as the greatest game designers of our time - Will Wright, Shigeru Miyamoto, Peter Molyneux and Sid Meiers...

I dream that one day, I'll be able to create an RPG franchise that would surpass Final Fantasy.

A city builder that will be greater than Sim City,

An adventure game even more epic than Zelda!

 

...

Then again, dreams are dreams. 

The 2 years of NS have eroded that dream.

And 3 years of university have killed it.

---

I remember a time when I LOVE programming. 

I remember a time when I was given an assignment, I would do way beyond what was required, just because I enjoyed it.

I remember a time when projects were fun.

Now, everything, I just want to "get it over" and done with.

I don't know why I'm here anymore

I don't know what happened.

Where did the passion go?

Maybe it's because I've come to the realization that I don't really have sufficient ability.

I don't have to ability to do all these.

Seeing the logs and cos make my head spin.

The word "trigonometry" makes me cringe in fear.

Weird greek symbols makes me shiver and tremble.

Interest and passion can only take you so far.

And now, the time has come for me to make a decision.

One that will decide what I will be doing for my last 6 months as a student.

And, perhaps what I'll be doing for the next 5 years, or 10 years of my life.

Do I really want to continue doing this?

Maybe it's time I try something different.

Maybe I should try experiencing a new environment.

And maybe I'll have a better idea what I want in the end.

Time to wake up?

你说你选了不该选的Course, 你的心中满是伤痕
你说你犯了不该犯的错, 心中满是悔恨
你说你尝尽了读书的苦, 找不到可以Pass的可能
你说你感到万分沮丧, 甚至开始怀疑人生

早知道伤心总是难免的, 你又何苦一往情深
因为一切总是难舍难分, 何必在意那一点点温存
要知道伤心总是难免的, 在每一个梦醒时分
有些事情你现在不必问, 有些人你永远不必等