The Vegetables...

Argh. I am so frustrated. Want sick don't want sick. Want die don't want die.

My "Illness". It's like fever but not really fever. Got a bit of headache but not really headache. My throat hurts something and sometimes it's fine. GRRRR... It's making me real mad. If I'm fully sick I'll go see a doctor. Now, I'm at this point where "see doctor is overkill, don't see won't recover" stage. Eat panadol also no use, sleep also no use. I don't even know if I'm sick or not.

Whole day like feel tired but couldn't sleep, want to go out but feel weak, use com a bit feel giddy, sit down do nothing feel angry... DAMN IT!

I'm in such a horrible mood. Feel like there's a lot of stuff inside me that I can't solve. Why can't I just do something, properly, from the start to the end. Why can't I just make up my mind. I just see every single day slip pass me one by one and I didn't do anything. I have a lot of thing to do but I don't know where to start.

Or maybe... just maybe... I think I'm trying to accomplish too much. More precisely, I think I care too much about unimportant things and neglect the really important things. Why do I keep doing those useless, unnecessary things over and over and over again? I think I'm enlightened...

I just want 2 to be healthy and happy. They're both linked to vegetables.

I think I'm really neglected my health. I don't eat enough vegetables. I hate "vegetables". "Vegetables" are causing me lot of unhappiness.

I'm going to eat up all the vegetables. It not only makes me healthy, it makes me happy.

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Went to watch the movie "I am a Legend" with MZ.

I wouldn't say it's horrible, but... the story is just very thin. Not much development. I thought the portion where he kills his own dog could be even more emotional if they put in enough effort.

It gets pretty intense at certain portions (even scary) though, but the ending is just way way too abrupt. The title of the movie is also no link. It has almost no link with the story...

Triple Happiness!

我相信，胜利将永远属於正义的一方！

We have lost battles after battles, and we were hurt again and again. Many lives were lost and many homes were destroyed. But in the end, victory belongs to the righteous side.

We prevailed! All hope is not lost!

老天有眼！人间有情！

There was one point, one point when I really lost all hope. But in the very end...

I'm glad my trust was not misplaced. Miracles do exists!

Another good news.

I've completed my last OD of the year.

Still a lot to go, but well, at least I can take a break now.

And the BEST NEWS of all.

My Grand "Early-Reincarnation Plan" is on the way. So happy. I've talked to almost all the necessary personnels and got all the items ready. Now I just have to wait for the eastern wind to blow... Well actually, it's just up to me to do a little bit of research and very careful planning before I launch this plan into action.

This is the most important plan and will take the most effort to maintain. I must come up with a really good strategy to squeeze the every last bit of goody out this plan, at the same time ensuring that I don't go overboard and screw it up. These few days would be a perfect time to work this out.

One little unfortunate thing... The last OD really took a toil on me (don't know why. It was supposed to be the easiest...) and now I'm suffering from frequent headaches. Even felt like vomiting when I eat. Geez. Hope I can recover by tomorrow and it doesn't ruin my hoilday.

Believing in a miracle...

(Note: Many "subjects" were changed to make this post even most confusing...Some errors were intended)

Do you believe in miracles?

Today I look into the sky and see the moon is shrouded by dark clouds...

It's like the gathering of evil forces.

The results seems inevitable...

It said it with such certainty that even I am shaken. I really am.

Will it really happen? Really, really come true? Will the diabolical plan come to fruition?

I don't know... just a little while ago, someone... somebody I trust, promised me that she will not let it come true. She told me to set my mind at ease. She is the only one that can stop it, and she said she will...

But time is running out... she is nowhere to be seen. The approaching calamity...

Her words are the only consolations I have now. It is the only little glimpse of light and hope I can rely on... It's like fragments of a "soon to be broken" promise. I felt that I could really trust her. Will she keep her promise?

Will a miracle really happen?

Typical conversation with my Mom

(Mum is going to the market and I just woke up...)

Mum: I'm going out to buy groceries to cook. You want to eat anything?
Me: No.
Mum: But I take a long while to cook. You can eat something while waiting.
Me: No need.
Mum: Later you hungry leh.
Me: Won't lah. I wait for you cook finish.
Mum: You sure you don't want?
Me: Yah. Don't want.
Mum: You sure? Want some mee-pok or mee-kia?
Me: No need bother...
Mum: Later cook finish will be very late liao. I got pass by the coffee shop.
Me: NO...thanks...
Mum: It won't be too troublesome... you really don't want?
Me: NO.
Mum: You sure you really don't want?
Me: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!

(%$#^#%^@#$@#$*&^WTF!*@#$@$!)

That's my mum...

I miss Poly Days...

The schooling days...

You know...

- Eating together at Foodcourt 6 at lunchtime
- Visiting "Art-Flen" and eating "Fa Cai"...
- Playing cluedo on the staircase while waiting for Chanon lesson to start
- Falling asleep during DEUI classes, and wondering if we can "Fry"...
- Spending 3 hours killing brain cells together at Hubertus practical
- Laughing our heads off at Arthur Poh lectures
- 'Chionging' assignments together in the school labs 2 days before the hand-in date
- Complaining how it take years to render the animation in the crappy computer labs
- 'Suanning' each other about who and who are together...
- Sending 'secret messages' via the computer during lessons...
- Counting how many times the audio lecturer will bang the table
- Wondering what movie we'll get to see again at the next Storyboarding class
- Looking forward to the next episode of Happy Tree Friends in the Maths class
- Slacking off together in the "secret corner" at level 1 during break and talking thrash...
- Playing the "Secret Code" aka "Zhong Ji Mi Ma" at Foodcourt 5, using Pizza Hut red pepper as punishment...
- Creating the 10 games for Hyper Relay...

Wow... feeling emotional just from typing out that list.

It's almost the end of they year...

過去的歲月已不會再回頭, 未來的路仍然要走~

Really 怀念 those days...

There were excitement and nervousness, joy and sadness, fear and anticipation, cooperation and teamwork, vigor and youth...

Now, I only experience ONE emotion 90% of the time.

"SIAN"

Yep... ultimate sian.

Not that I don't experience that in the Poly, but...

It's a "Different Kind of Sian".

Poly sian is the kind where you have to wake up early in the morning to get to school. Where you have to sit through boring lectures and forcing yourself to stay awake. Where you die die have to finish an assignment you have no clue how to do.

Here, the sian is on a much deeper level. It is not just those "superficial" kind of sian. It is the sian which plunged deep into your heart. It is a cancer that grows in your body and drains the very life force out of your body, your mind and your soul. It is a fatal kind of sian.

It is like on a totally different scale. Almost every day I have to go through this feeling over and over and over... It's driving me nuts!

The sian-ness is unbearable. It's doing something over and over and over again which SERVES NO PURPOSE. It drains your energy and fulfill nothing significant.

Dear god when can I go back to the schooling days.

Expectations... Ha!

I've never been more afraid of phone calls in my entire life...

Just the sound of it ringing send a chill down my spine. I sleep in the night fearing the deadly tone of my phone.

...

...

It doesn't pay to be the "good guy". In the movies, good guys always get set up and dies. Or spend his entire life in poverty until the very end. The good guy never gets the girl of his dream until the end. It's the evil guy that always get away with everything, only to die the most glorious death. It's almost the same in reality.

Seriously it's dumb. Like... look. If someone has always perform badly, nobody dares to say anything about him. They are just like "live with it". But, if someone who usually perform very well, did something bad ONE TIME, everyone is like "oh he screws up", and "I never thought he's someone like that".

I mean... WTF is that shit. So, you're saying that it's okay to play truant if you do it all the time (until everyone "know your pattern"), but it's not okay if you skip school for once.

I get it now. It's something call "expectation". Once you get used to the good guy, you always expect him to perform. And you'll punish him seriously if he mess up.

This is so unfair. I don't think nobody realize this. Kid A always top the class and one day he fails a paper. His parents will all be like "Oh what happen? I must now ban him from going out with his friends and watching TV ".

If the same thing happen to Kid B who frequently performs badly, his parents will be like "Oh, what can I do. I can't bother to lecture him. He's always like that."

Can you imagine how Kid A must have felt? He'll be like "how come my mum doesn't punish brother for doing badly, but I have to face such serious consequences."

How come some people can get away slacking off whole day but nobody dare to say a word. And when those that work all the time just want to take some time off, people start pointing finger. If one day the slacker really did some work, people will treat it as "extra bonus".

It is the epitome of stupidity but we all do it in some way without realizing it.

All the work, all the responsibility gets handed to you. You don't receive any reward for completing it, but you better bet there is hell to pay if you fail to complete it.

So, what's the morale of this story?

Star Awards 2007

It's usually one event that I won't miss every year, even if I barely watch a single TV show the whole year. It's just entertaining to watch the speech by the various artists. I still remember the speech given by Huang Bi Ren's last week when she received the "Most well-liked local female artist", and she was so surprised that she said this...

"通常这种特设的奖项，每次都是看惠玉跟文方轮流再拿。。。真的没想到是我。"
(This kind of special award, always is Zoe and Fann taking turns to take... never expected it to be me)

LOL... But she really deserved the award.

Surprised to see some of the guests, like Zhou Hui Min. Haha. And haven't seen Sharon Au in quite a while. She was one of Mediacorp's best entertainment host, whenever she team up with Quan Yi Feng or Kym.

破茧而出 won the Best Drama of the year, which I think is justified. It's one of the few show that I would actually turn on the TV to watch, and probably one of Mediacorp best action drama in years.

Carmen won the Best supporting actress from 幸福双人床... Haha. If you can portray an "evil" character until the audience hates you, I think you've succeeded. Well, actually Carmen is not a totally evil person, but she's been cheated so many times that she uses all sort of underhand means to get love.

Best Female lead also by Lin Xiang Ping from 破茧而出... not that she's not good, but I was hoping Huang Bi Ren will get. (Then again, they probably think she receive it too many times liao lah...)

I've been re-watching The Unbeatables, aka 双天至尊 lately. Even though after so many years, it's still extremely enjoyable to watch. I would say it's one of the really classic show of Mediacorp and one of my all-time favourite. I would like to think that Unbeatables III never happened, cause it absolutely suck. The script, the gambling scenes and everything. Overused visual effects with exaggerated moves - cards flying halfway across the room and computerized battles. The original Unbeatables is better in every aspect. The gambling battles keeps you on the edge of the seat, the character development are better and the plot is better.

Great Awards Ceremony, very enjoyable. Especially the final portion, when almost every male artist that went on stage is "Fann's husband". Haha.

Bullfighting - Favourite Scenes

I'm only at episodes 4 and there are already quite a number of scenes that I like, from those very entertaining ones to the heart-warming ones. Here are some of them...

Episode 1: Xue's dad appear for the first time to scold everyone...
XUE：哎哟爸。。。
DAD： 叫"父亲大人"！爸爸这个名词，是非常轻浮的，一点威严都没有！
From the background... 小武武~！
(Everyone falls)

Episode 1: Zi Cong piggyback Xue...
XUE: 该死的沈若赫，没事干嘛篮球打那么好。不过他刚才耍帅的样子真还蛮帅的。。。
CONG: 。。。
XUE: 哼！会打篮球有什么了不起。子聪你快点去学打篮球，你打篮球一定比他更帅！

Episode 2: Xue's hallucinating Ruo He going down on his knees to beg her... (and later on the other way round) [click to see gif]



Episode 2: At sickbay... behind the partition... (Funny)
XUE: 啊！好痛啊~快放开我， 我不玩了啦！啊~~~好痛。。。我不要了啦！
RUO HE: 事情哪有只做一半的。。。忍耐点， 痛一下就过去了，我会轻一点的。
DOCTOR: 果然是少年轻狂啊。。。青春啊青春啊青春啊！
XUE: 啊。。。谁来救我。。。

Episode 3: Xue confront Zi Cong...
The entire scene leading up to this is very intense and touching...
CONG : 所以你的意思是沈若赫的感觉比我们家兄弟重要罗？
XUE: 没错。。。
(Cong slams the chair and the music kicks in...)

Episode 3: Xue delivers breakfast... Cong was about to kiss her when... (Funny)

EPISODE 4: Ruo He returns to save Xue after betraying her... (Romance)
RUO HE: 一个人的良心，掉到海里，被鲨鱼啃了，也消化了，还有回来的机会吗？
XUE: 你想要回来吗？

Episode 4; Ruo He defies his father for the first time...
RUO HE: 我就是想为伊胜雪输一次！

Bullfighting - First Impressions

对我来说， 原来爱情与斗牛精神，是一样的。

不论你的防守有多严密，只要我喜欢你

就一定会找出你的破绽，突破你
抄截你，穿越你，然后得分。

如果你也好奇，这个关于斗牛跟爱情的故事
就跟我看场真心相对的爱情赛事吧。

Beautiful scene. This scene will probably aired on the last episode, but it's right there at the beginning... totally looking forward to it.

This is Hebe's (Sheng Xue) first time acting as the male lead for a drama, starring Lee Wei (Zi Cong) and Mike He (Ruo He).

The story happens in the "13 street", where an annual "Bullfighting" competition is held to determine the ownership of the Basketball Court. It jumps straight into action almost as soon as the story begins, after some basic character intro. Xue is the daughter of the landlord of 13 street, guarded by the bodyguard Cong. They are kind of like the "Black Triads" though... Ruo is one of the representatives fighting for East Sun school which Xue supported. When he lost, he was confronted by Xue...

Hebe as Sheng Xue - She's like your typical "My Sassy" girl. I don't really like the character from the start. Very bossy, full of herself, rebellious, take other people kindness for granted. But as the story progresses, it begins to reveal more of her good side, and her attitude begins to change...

Mike as Ruo He - Same old personality and character! Seriously, 3 dramas, Devil Beside You, Why Why Love and this. Mike always act the same kind of character. The "bad male lead" who hates the female, but eventually fell in love with her due to strange circumstances... LOL. But he's good at acting this stuff. Here, he's a cold person who cares only about winning, but changes gradually due to Xue's appearance.

Lee Wei as Zi Cong - Always beside Sheng Xue, protecting her, guarding her. He simply obey all her orders and everything... there are certain portions in the story when you'll actually feel sad for him. But I like this character.

The acting here is of much better quality compared to Hana Kimi, which I reviewed around the same time last year. It is more dramatic and romance to being comedic... and I really enjoyed it.

The intense basketball fight scenes and the heart-warming moments here and there. It's not just limited to the love part, but also the whole "13th Street". And of course just like every idol drama out there, this one has some hilarious moments as well.

Overall I would say it's better than Hana Kimi, and that includes the OST! The songs are really good, almost all of the 8 tracks. Of course, S.H.E's 最近还好吗 is the best... Haha. It looks extremely beautiful when coupled with the feather scene. I really like Hebe's solo in the album as well.

It's my 21st birthday!

Really... got nothing much to say. Haha.

I wanted to be more happy on this day but I couldn't find any reasons to.

This morning, I was woken up under one of the worst possible scenarios.

Yep...

Woken up by a call from the cursed place. (Yeah you know where)

Haiz... what else?

More bad news.

Even on my birthday I have to go through this kind of mental torture. I've already given up.

The future just got even bleaker.

I think this is one of the worst "birthday presents' I can get.

Well... I shan't talk about this on this "happy occassion", so I'll leave it to next time.

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Ah~ 21st birthday.

That is like every little kid "dream".

The time when "everything" becomes legal. When you become an adult. When you gain independence! Now I can go straight to ROM to get married without my parents approval.

Haha... anyway, it's just like any other birthdays for me. Not much plans. I am just not the kind of people that would 大费周章 to organize some big party for a birthday. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying it's not good to have some huge gatherings, but it's just something that doesn't happen in my family. Or maybe you can say that I'm just lazy. It's something that my mother has "inculcate" into me since young. ^_^

Anyway, it's good to know that there are people who care. Thanks to all the people who bother to text me a happy birthday message. It was quite "unexpected" for receive some of them... (GS, Chap, Samantha to name a few) I even received a present from my brother's GF... duh?

Oh and I shall assume that Ben's birthday song is for me. Or more accurately, "happen to be" for me.

And my mum. Haiz... she always tell me to "don't stay up too late"... But she doesn't understand my work schedule. It's not that I don't want to rest early but it is totally out of my means. I am tired of explaining to her. -_-

Anyway... I did went out for a simple dinner with the whole family at a local restaurant. Usual stuffs like shark fins and abalone, kinda like a wedding dinner. I really enjoy eating-out with everyone. It's very relaxing and filling... especially when you don't need to pay. Ha ha ha...

Happy birthday to Samantha, Param, Chiow. (I actually know 3 other people who shares my birthday)

My birthday wish is...

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不能说的秘密

The Table Theory

Let me show you this. A table.

You put stuff on the table.

The table have legs, and there are a fixed number of them, which determines how strong the table it. It decides how much load the table can endure, how much weight it can support.

This brand new, strong and durable table with 30+ legs. And then, you keep putting stuff on it. You pile load after load of junk onto it. 10Kg, 100Kg, 1000Kg.

Then 10 Tonnes, then 20 tonnes. Eventually the table will give way and collapse. And the day has come.

One by one, the legs have given way, broken under the tremendous pressure.

And what happens? This means the remaining legs have to endure even more pressure.

There are 2 ways you can do to savage the situation now.

1) Strengthened or add more legs.
2) Reduce the load on the table.

But, that would be too kind.

No way we're going to do that. We're going to keep putting shit on the table.

We won't rest until this thing is destroyed.

Dolphin Voice...

Recently, 2 songs caught my attention for having this "Dolphin Pitch"...

They are F.I.R's "Ai Guo" and Jay Chou's "Wu Shuang", both in their respective new albums.

So, what exactly is this "Dolphin Pitch" craze?

Let Mr Harlem teach you... (1min 10 seconds)



Beautiful, exhilarating.

Of course, there are also many people who tried to hit this legendary dolphin pitch and fails miserably.

Jacky Wu for example.



Tanya is not bad hor? There are also clips of Rainie, Ella and even Hebe attempting to sing this pitch.

Anyway, I think Jacky Wu should go back to singing the Tamil Song.



Or go back to his free-style rap.



Finally, let's end with a more serious note. This girl managed to sing the "Dolphin Song" so well it gives me the goosebumps.

Mediacorp 25 Year Of Drama...

Just finished watching the special programme on Channel 8...

Wow... brought back lots of memories... feeling kinda nostalgic... seeing so many old actors, old clips, and listening to those drama theme songs...

Here's a list of all Mediacorp Dramas

In my opinion, the "classic era" of Mediacorp is long gone. And the quality of dramas and actors now cannot be compared with that of the past. Even though I say that, I must admit that the main reason I feel that way is that I no longer watch TV that often. Since the "Internet Boom" in 2000s, the time I spent watching TV got lesser and lesser...

The first few dramas from my childhood memory are probably 早安老师, 双天至尊, etc...

Even though it's impossible to remember the storylines, the name alone confirms that I've watched the serial before... haha.

Stuffs like: 一号凶宅, 侠义包公, 缘尽今生, 医胆仁心, 妈姐情缘, 女子监狱, 创意兴家, 金枕头, 再见萤光兰

豆腐街, 阳光列车, 解连环, 新阿郎 all have great opening songs.

1997 was probably the start of Mediacorp "golden age". So many of my favourite series shown during that year.

真命小和尚, 都是夜归人, 和平的代价, 不老的传说, 长河 (Great Theme)...

And that golden period extends and reaches its peak in 1998 (probably the best year in its entire history)... so many classic shows...

钢琴88 (Nice duet opening)
家人有约 (Huang Bi Ren + Xie Shao Guang undying classic)
神雕侠侣 (Fav show at that time... started my comic hobby)
欲望街车 (The title just rings a bell... a very funny show)
卫斯理传奇 (Again fuel my comic collection)
东游记 (Who doesn't know this classic show...Guo Fei Li's work to fame)
陌生人 (One of my fav show... this one is about stocks)
珍珠街坊 (Another classic)

And a lot of others... 1999 is still pretty good, featuring 福满人间 and 出路. 2000 onwards I spent much lesser time watching TV... Some serials I remember includes...

笑傲江湖, 何日军再来, 我来也 (Very nice ending theme), 白蛇新传, 豹子胆 (Fav), 九层糕 (Fav), 春到人间, 荷兰村, 喜临门, 同心圆

More recently in 2007... cause of OD, I actually watch quite a number of shows... Haha.

十三鞭, 幸福双人床 (cute show), 宝家为国 (talk about propa-u know), 破茧而出

Haha...

播音人: 我是陈美光光光光光。。。

S.H.E Collection...

I always thought my collection of S.H.E stuff was pretty impressive, but...

I totally bow down to this person...

It's like comparing Bukit Timah Hill to Mt Everest. It's like comparing the glow of a matchstick to the brightness of the Sun. It's like Hornswoggle running into Great Khali.

I really 五体投地

Is he or she a millionaire or something?

Nearly got run over...

Was walking home just now...

In a complete daze from the crazy OD last night...

So tired I could barely open my eyes as I walked...

Then suddenly I heard a loud honk and I was like totally startled.

And I realized I'm actually crossing the road...

I don't even realize I was crossing a road!!!

Kinda freaked out...

Luckily nothing happen...

Very tired liao... sleep time...

A new historical movie...?

One Commendable Emperor.

One Evil Prime Minister.

4 Royal Families.

6 Imperial Generals.

And the inhabitants of Motherland...

The Krystal star has fallen...A new son of heaven.

A new emperor that is honorable, yet is oblivious to the politics going behind the Imperial Court.

Seizing the chance, the evil prime minister began to usurp power and gained the emperor trust. The emperor was too blinded and trustful of this servant...

The populace are dying...

Soon... doom will befall the motherland...

There will be tears...

There will be blood...

There will be sacrifices...

All living beings will be brought to the brink of extinction...

天下大地将会面临盘古初开以来最大的危机。。。

大魔头再度降临人间， 天下即将陷入一个前所未有的乱世时代

奸臣当道，朝政腐败，民不聊生。。。生灵涂炭。。。

天下苍生的未来。。。

究竟掌握在谁的手中？

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Epic Historical Movie...

Coming Soon...

2008...

Getting caught up...

I'm really bogged down by lots of things lately...

It is a really bad time...

So many unhappy things happening almost everyday...

Things out of our control...

I don't think I've ever been in a worse state.

My house is in a mess... I kept piling junk into my drawer. Today I opened it and saw something extremely disgusting... Some crea... damn!

What have I been doing for the past month?! Am I living in a garbage dump?!

Grrrr...

I really don't know...

Sometimes, I feel that there are so many things I want to do. So many things I want to get started on, so many things I want to accomplish. But at the end of the day, I've done absolutely nothing about it.

It's like I just give up. There's just so many things and I don't know where to start, or how to start. I just give up and lie there doing nothing. I feel like I'm rotting away into oblivion...

My last major leave (2nd longest after the Block Leave) is coming soon... I made up my mind to do something about this mess. It's not just the physical condition of my house, but everything. Spiritually, Mentally, Physically, Emotionally, Financially (yeah, I'll explain some day)...

I must stop myself from going into this downward spiral. Else I will really breakdown when hell unleashes on the 1st Jan 08. I will never forgive myself if I waste this last stretch of leave.

Rank & Respect...

For some reason, this quote from Mr Low just come back to me...

I think it came back to me for some reason.

"Rank is what you wear, Respect is what you earned."

How true...

It's like...

You bow down to the Emperor because it's mandatory, but whether you respect him deep down in your heart is another question all together...