Seriously... I am so freaking sian already.
I have never been this sian in my life.
The only thing keeping me going is my 10-year master plan.
I must endure.
I must suffer.
I mustn't throw in the towel despite all the challenges.
The more I am subjected to such pain and humilation, the more I am determined to not go through this in the future.
And that is why I must suffer now for my future self.
I must endure now to save up as much ammo as possible, to accelerate my path out of this mindless pursuit.
I must.
