(Warning: Lot of songs incoming...)
I went back there for a little while today...
...
A lot of flashback as I sat down and have my dinner...
As I waited for my number...
...
...
Why... why some things which are so important to me...
...
But somehow,
For some reason...
It's now gradually losing its importance...
...
...
...
Don't even need to modify the lyrics that much...
Because the original song already got almost everything nail down...
...
This is for the ones we've lost...
我这里天快要黑了 那里呢
我这里天气凉凉的 那里呢
我这里一切都变了 我变的懂事了
我又开始写日记了 而那你呢
我这里天快要亮了 那里呢
我这里天气很炎热 那里呢
我这里一切都变了 我变的不哭了
我把回忆也收起了 而那你呢
如果我们现在还在一起会是怎样
我们是不是还是会一起吃饭
像开始时那样 真诚的面对着对方
我们现在还在一起会是怎样
我们是不是还是隐瞒着对方
像结束时那样 我知道我没有错
要我怎么原谅
我不会原谅 我怎么原谅
Friday, May 29, 2009
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
7382
Tell you this.
I have my deepest and utmost respect for some people.
But for some others that's 7382, I'm not going to take their nonsense.
I won't take such BS.
Sometimes, it's not the "what".
It's the "who" that matters.
And for me, it matters a lot.
I have my deepest and utmost respect for some people.
But for some others that's 7382, I'm not going to take their nonsense.
I won't take such BS.
Sometimes, it's not the "what".
It's the "who" that matters.
And for me, it matters a lot.
Monday, May 25, 2009
I Am So Sleepy... So Tired...
Literally.
...
I don't know if it's due to the horrendous weather.
Or maybe it's the kind of "aura" that's present in that place.
Or is it just that I've become so much physically weaker.
But somehow I just tire out so-ooooooo easily.
...
It's like, I never even do much things.
Just do some running, some really simple chores.
But somehow I will feel so tired towards the later part of the day...
Almost everyday.
...
=.=
Like today.
When I reached home, I was so tired that I knockout for 2 hours straight. You can almost say I collapsed immediately upon seeing the bed.
=_=
...
...
It's not like I'm not sleeping enough at night either leh...
Every night got 7 hours leh...
Why like that?
O_O
...
...
I don't know if it's due to the horrendous weather.
Or maybe it's the kind of "aura" that's present in that place.
Or is it just that I've become so much physically weaker.
But somehow I just tire out so-ooooooo easily.
...
It's like, I never even do much things.
Just do some running, some really simple chores.
But somehow I will feel so tired towards the later part of the day...
Almost everyday.
...
=.=
Like today.
When I reached home, I was so tired that I knockout for 2 hours straight. You can almost say I collapsed immediately upon seeing the bed.
=_=
...
...
It's not like I'm not sleeping enough at night either leh...
Every night got 7 hours leh...
Why like that?
O_O
...
Friday, May 22, 2009
Slacking Overboard...
Yes... it's the time of the year again.
Results release day.
Was your expectations too high? Or you didn't put in enough effort?
You always have a thousand reasons to justify why you fail again...
I thought one day you'll become diligent...
But once again, you slack overboard again this semester.
Given a chance to start over again, would you still pick the same path?
Title: SLACK 过了火
是否对自己承诺太多, 还是你原本读的就不够
你始终有千万种理由, 解释你为什么每次会FAIL
让你疯, 让你去放纵
以为你, 有天会用功
但是FAIL了, 你还是无动于衷
直到所有的梦已破碎, 才看见你的眼泪和后悔
我是多想再给你机会, 不想看你那么, 伤悲
(我是多想再给你机会, 你是不是能够, 学会)
既然FAIL, 不能挽回
就别逃避, 勇敢面对
FAIL过的MODULE, 你不可能够, 要得回
怎么能不怪你, 犯了错
是你自己SLACK到过了火
如果能回头，你是不是还会选错
怎么忍心看你, 受折磨
是你自己SLACK到过了火
如果你再FAIL, 别跟我说
Results release day.
Was your expectations too high? Or you didn't put in enough effort?
You always have a thousand reasons to justify why you fail again...
I thought one day you'll become diligent...
But once again, you slack overboard again this semester.
Given a chance to start over again, would you still pick the same path?
Title: SLACK 过了火
是否对自己承诺太多, 还是你原本读的就不够
你始终有千万种理由, 解释你为什么每次会FAIL
让你疯, 让你去放纵
以为你, 有天会用功
但是FAIL了, 你还是无动于衷
直到所有的梦已破碎, 才看见你的眼泪和后悔
我是多想再给你机会, 不想看你那么, 伤悲
(我是多想再给你机会, 你是不是能够, 学会)
既然FAIL, 不能挽回
就别逃避, 勇敢面对
FAIL过的MODULE, 你不可能够, 要得回
怎么能不怪你, 犯了错
是你自己SLACK到过了火
如果能回头，你是不是还会选错
怎么忍心看你, 受折磨
是你自己SLACK到过了火
如果你再FAIL, 别跟我说
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
The Best Friendship
When we were little kids, we make friends with people we like. We hang out with them because we share common interests, because we enjoy their company, because we can talk to them about our problems, because we need a listening ear...
Etc...
Everything was simple and straightforward.
If we don't like someone, we just tell him "I don't friend you already!"
...
^_^
...
But somehow as we grow up...
There becomes more and more pretendence in even simple things like this.
Somehow, we have to pretend to like somebody due to all sorts of reasons.
Perhaps due to his power and authority.
Or due to his wealth and fortune.
Or his intelligence and diligence.
In summary, we pretend to like him because he is "useful" to you. Because pretending to be "buddy buddy" with him is beneficial to you.
...
It's ridiculous.
Ridiculous.
Seen too much of these.
...
Sadly, it's unavoidable in this pretentious world.
And we are both victim and culprit of such atrocious acts.
...
...
...
I want to go back to the purest kind of friendship.
The kind of friendship we foster when we were young children.
The kind of friends whom you can share your problems, your happiness, whom you can trust.
The friends who like you for your personality and your character, not how many condos you own, not how high ranking you are, not how many distinctions you can get, etc...
Etc...
Everything was simple and straightforward.
If we don't like someone, we just tell him "I don't friend you already!"
...
^_^
...
But somehow as we grow up...
There becomes more and more pretendence in even simple things like this.
Somehow, we have to pretend to like somebody due to all sorts of reasons.
Perhaps due to his power and authority.
Or due to his wealth and fortune.
Or his intelligence and diligence.
In summary, we pretend to like him because he is "useful" to you. Because pretending to be "buddy buddy" with him is beneficial to you.
...
It's ridiculous.
Ridiculous.
Seen too much of these.
...
Sadly, it's unavoidable in this pretentious world.
And we are both victim and culprit of such atrocious acts.
...
...
...
I want to go back to the purest kind of friendship.
The kind of friendship we foster when we were young children.
The kind of friends whom you can share your problems, your happiness, whom you can trust.
The friends who like you for your personality and your character, not how many condos you own, not how high ranking you are, not how many distinctions you can get, etc...
Monday, May 18, 2009
What's The Best Comment In Source Code You've Seen?
Came across a website some time ago, with a list of "What's the best comment in source code you ever encountered?"
And I think it really contain some comedic gems...
So I've extract some of the best parts and put it here.
Oh yeah, this post is for programmers only.
Non-programmers probably won't catch the joke.
My personal favourite is the "Me and God" one... Haha. I'm going to try putting that next time.
//You are not expected to understand this
double penetration; // ouch
//Abandon all hope yea who enter beyond this point
// If you're reading this, that means you have been put in charge of my previous project. I am so, so sorry for you. God speed.
// Dear maintainer:
//
// Once you are done trying to 'optimize' this routine,
// and have realized what a terrible mistake that was,
// please increment the following counter as a warning
// to the next guy:
//
// total_hours_wasted_here = 16
//When I wrote this, only God and I understood what I was doing
//Now, God only knows
/*
* You may think you know what the following code does.
* But you dont. Trust me.
* Fiddle with it, and youll spend many a sleepless
* night cursing the moment you thought youd be clever
* enough to "optimize" the code below.
* Now close this file and go play with something else.
*/
/**
* Always returns true.
*/
public boolean isAvailable() {
return false;
}
// I am not sure if we need this, but too scared to delete.
// I am not responsible of this code.
// They made me write it, against my will.
long john; // silver
int counter;
//11/15/08 13:21 It's a counter
//11/16/08 14:13 Obviously. Could you be more specific?
//11/16/08 14:22 It's for a loop
//11/16/08 14:41 WHICH LOOP??
//11/16/08 15:05 Hm... doesn't look like it's used anywhere in this program
//11/17/08 09:28 Well what I want to know is why it's defined in the first place then
//11/17/08 10:01 What I want to know is why we've spent so much time trying to figure out the purpose of one line of code as simple as "int counter;"
Exception up = new Exception("Something is really wrong.");
throw up; //ha ha
When doing my A Level computing course we had a book, in the book the glossary contained two entries:
Endless Loop - See 'Loop, Endless'
Loop, Endless - See 'Endless Loop'
//Dear future me. Please forgive me.
//I can't even begin to express how sorry I am.
And I think it really contain some comedic gems...
So I've extract some of the best parts and put it here.
Oh yeah, this post is for programmers only.
Non-programmers probably won't catch the joke.
My personal favourite is the "Me and God" one... Haha. I'm going to try putting that next time.
//You are not expected to understand this
double penetration; // ouch
//Abandon all hope yea who enter beyond this point
// If you're reading this, that means you have been put in charge of my previous project. I am so, so sorry for you. God speed.
// Dear maintainer:
//
// Once you are done trying to 'optimize' this routine,
// and have realized what a terrible mistake that was,
// please increment the following counter as a warning
// to the next guy:
//
// total_hours_wasted_here = 16
//When I wrote this, only God and I understood what I was doing
//Now, God only knows
/*
* You may think you know what the following code does.
* But you dont. Trust me.
* Fiddle with it, and youll spend many a sleepless
* night cursing the moment you thought youd be clever
* enough to "optimize" the code below.
* Now close this file and go play with something else.
*/
/**
* Always returns true.
*/
public boolean isAvailable() {
return false;
}
// I am not sure if we need this, but too scared to delete.
// I am not responsible of this code.
// They made me write it, against my will.
long john; // silver
int counter;
//11/15/08 13:21 It's a counter
//11/16/08 14:13 Obviously. Could you be more specific?
//11/16/08 14:22 It's for a loop
//11/16/08 14:41 WHICH LOOP??
//11/16/08 15:05 Hm... doesn't look like it's used anywhere in this program
//11/17/08 09:28 Well what I want to know is why it's defined in the first place then
//11/17/08 10:01 What I want to know is why we've spent so much time trying to figure out the purpose of one line of code as simple as "int counter;"
Exception up = new Exception("Something is really wrong.");
throw up; //ha ha
When doing my A Level computing course we had a book, in the book the glossary contained two entries:
Endless Loop - See 'Loop, Endless'
Loop, Endless - See 'Endless Loop'
//Dear future me. Please forgive me.
//I can't even begin to express how sorry I am.
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Reminisce Of The Past... (Goodbye Ranger)
Jason told me, "Today I take my IC, Ranger also hand in his (交登记)"...
What irony... his graduation day is the same as the day Ranger left us...
....
Anyway... he stayed behind the whole day.
Think he's quite emo about leaving Jackie...
Both of us sent Ranger off on his final journey...
He had this super peaceful look on his face when I saw his body... it almost looked like he's still sleeping. (If it wasn't for his tongue which has totally lost any trace of life...)
Really stunned man... Mao Mao and guys were extremely saddened by his death...
:(
...
After giving his entire life to the Kindergarten...
After slogging for freaking 12 years...
I cannot believe how they treat him...
This is really a cruel and heartless world.
Is this it?
Is this how it all works?
Haiz...
Some memorial posts about Ranger below...
- Benja Benja
- Mao Mao
(Important: The writer is not responsible for the contents of the external websites)
Anyway, I stayed over at the Kindergarten that night... but it feels so different now. For me at least.
The new students sleep so early... like... barely 11am and almost all of them are already in bed.
I miss the days when we have guys like SK, Domnic, etc that would party till late into the night... Haha...
I miss the days when we would play Wii till the Wee hours...
When we would gossip and complain and stuffs...
And of course all the other crazy things...
...
Now, I barely know anyone there.
But it's not just that.
It just feels different now.
Lot of memories flashback as I toured the backyard once again that night...
...
Wow... seriously, I never thought I'll have the chance to do this again.
As I walk pass each dog, I'll say things like
"Falcooooo~~~ Where is Dominic? Do you miss him?"
And things like that... talking random stuffs about the past, about each of their old handlers as I walked passed their homes...
Liew... the dogs must be thinking that I'm nuts...
And...
Jackie actually looked pretty Emo that night... OMG...
Seriously, I've never seen him look like this before. He always got that stern and fierce expression on the whole time... Those who knows him will know.
But that night...
...
He was in one corner, at the furthest back of the kennel, with his head down on the floor, and he had this "stoned" gaze on his face... I called out to him, but he didn't moved at all. He just shifted his eyes and glanced at me a while... and continue on to stone...
...
Wah Lau... really feel like crying when I see him like that...
Somehow... I feel that he knows Jason has left...
Somehow he can sense it...
:(
...
Quite sad when you think about it...
We only have to experience leaving them once... but they have to go through it don't know how many times in their life...
Haiz...
...
...
I still remember this quote...
"To you, he is just a dog. To him, you are everything"
...
...
What irony... his graduation day is the same as the day Ranger left us...
....
Anyway... he stayed behind the whole day.
Think he's quite emo about leaving Jackie...
Both of us sent Ranger off on his final journey...
He had this super peaceful look on his face when I saw his body... it almost looked like he's still sleeping. (If it wasn't for his tongue which has totally lost any trace of life...)
Really stunned man... Mao Mao and guys were extremely saddened by his death...
:(
...
After giving his entire life to the Kindergarten...
After slogging for freaking 12 years...
I cannot believe how they treat him...
This is really a cruel and heartless world.
Is this it?
Is this how it all works?
Haiz...
Some memorial posts about Ranger below...
- Benja Benja
- Mao Mao
(Important: The writer is not responsible for the contents of the external websites)
Anyway, I stayed over at the Kindergarten that night... but it feels so different now. For me at least.
The new students sleep so early... like... barely 11am and almost all of them are already in bed.
I miss the days when we have guys like SK, Domnic, etc that would party till late into the night... Haha...
I miss the days when we would play Wii till the Wee hours...
When we would gossip and complain and stuffs...
And of course all the other crazy things...
...
Now, I barely know anyone there.
But it's not just that.
It just feels different now.
Lot of memories flashback as I toured the backyard once again that night...
...
Wow... seriously, I never thought I'll have the chance to do this again.
As I walk pass each dog, I'll say things like
"Falcooooo~~~ Where is Dominic? Do you miss him?"
And things like that... talking random stuffs about the past, about each of their old handlers as I walked passed their homes...
Liew... the dogs must be thinking that I'm nuts...
And...
Jackie actually looked pretty Emo that night... OMG...
Seriously, I've never seen him look like this before. He always got that stern and fierce expression on the whole time... Those who knows him will know.
But that night...
...
He was in one corner, at the furthest back of the kennel, with his head down on the floor, and he had this "stoned" gaze on his face... I called out to him, but he didn't moved at all. He just shifted his eyes and glanced at me a while... and continue on to stone...
...
Wah Lau... really feel like crying when I see him like that...
Somehow... I feel that he knows Jason has left...
Somehow he can sense it...
:(
...
Quite sad when you think about it...
We only have to experience leaving them once... but they have to go through it don't know how many times in their life...
Haiz...
...
...
I still remember this quote...
"To you, he is just a dog. To him, you are everything"
...
...
Thursday, May 14, 2009
Kay Kingdom Epilogue - The Return
I almost made it to the Scholar's Academy... but by a twist of fate, I ended back rejoining the ranks of the Kay Knights again.
The feeling is like one of your feet is already on heaven's ground...
But you slipped and fall... ... falling into the depths of hell...
Again...
...
It's a long story, but the main gist is that I didn't expect the Chief of the Scholar's Academy to go missing in action...
And the greatest miscalculation was speaking to General Koala from the Imperial Stables... I thought I could trust him.
...
But I was wrong.
In the end, I was "setup" by him, and recalled back by the Lord of the Knights...
...
...
...
And it was the beginning of a "series of unfortunate events"...
...
They claimed that I was a jinx there, because a lot of bad things happened from the day of my return...
...
Indeed... I am an unlucky man.
May I am cursed...
And I plan to leave all my bad luck behind in this cursed kingdom...
Before I leave the Kay Kingdom one more time...
One final time...
...
...
...
Let's count...
1st Day
2 of the royal steed went crazy and attacked 2 of the Kay Knights... old and new. Lack of manpower, internal conflict, more imperial edicts... -_-
2nd Day
The death of one of the best steed in Kay Kingdom... and even the retired knights from ages ago mourn for this great loss... Yet another unexpected imperial edict calling for Kay Knights "reinforcements"... =_=
3rd Day:
The Lord of the Kay Knights exploded, shattering the earths beneath and damaging all the lowly mortals... It was a dark day for the Kingdom... @_@'
And the biggest issue...
...
...
It's been said since the very early days of my Kay Kingdom Life...
Since the days of Chief Kingfisher...
Since the days when the 3 Pillars of the Kay Knights were still around...
But it's really coming true now.
The officially declaration of war is confirmed.
The Sea War...
From next week onwards, the Kay Knights must defend the 2 Necromancers Berth...
...
...
...
What else could happen before we reach the end?
...
May the gods above bless the Kay Kingdoms...
...
- New Member of Kay Knight -
The feeling is like one of your feet is already on heaven's ground...
But you slipped and fall... ... falling into the depths of hell...
Again...
...
It's a long story, but the main gist is that I didn't expect the Chief of the Scholar's Academy to go missing in action...
And the greatest miscalculation was speaking to General Koala from the Imperial Stables... I thought I could trust him.
...
But I was wrong.
In the end, I was "setup" by him, and recalled back by the Lord of the Knights...
...
...
...
And it was the beginning of a "series of unfortunate events"...
...
They claimed that I was a jinx there, because a lot of bad things happened from the day of my return...
...
Indeed... I am an unlucky man.
May I am cursed...
And I plan to leave all my bad luck behind in this cursed kingdom...
Before I leave the Kay Kingdom one more time...
One final time...
...
...
...
Let's count...
1st Day
2 of the royal steed went crazy and attacked 2 of the Kay Knights... old and new. Lack of manpower, internal conflict, more imperial edicts... -_-
2nd Day
The death of one of the best steed in Kay Kingdom... and even the retired knights from ages ago mourn for this great loss... Yet another unexpected imperial edict calling for Kay Knights "reinforcements"... =_=
3rd Day:
The Lord of the Kay Knights exploded, shattering the earths beneath and damaging all the lowly mortals... It was a dark day for the Kingdom... @_@'
And the biggest issue...
...
...
It's been said since the very early days of my Kay Kingdom Life...
Since the days of Chief Kingfisher...
Since the days when the 3 Pillars of the Kay Knights were still around...
But it's really coming true now.
The officially declaration of war is confirmed.
The Sea War...
From next week onwards, the Kay Knights must defend the 2 Necromancers Berth...
...
...
...
What else could happen before we reach the end?
...
May the gods above bless the Kay Kingdoms...
...
- New Member of Kay Knight -
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
8 Words To Describe The Kindergarten
景物依旧
人事已非
...
...
Definition: 现在,偶尔回去以前一些地方,景物依旧,可是人去楼空,看似没变,可是已经全变样了。
...
人事已非
...
...
Definition: 现在,偶尔回去以前一些地方,景物依旧,可是人去楼空,看似没变,可是已经全变样了。
...
Monday, May 11, 2009
Scholar's Academy Or Imperial Stables?
5th Year Of The 9th Eclipse
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Strangely, I felt extraordinary calm the night before, and when I woke up today.
Extraordinarily peaceful.
It's uncanny.
...
So for the first time in more than 10 months, I equipped my character with the "Emerald Armor", which instantly reduces my intellectual stat by 30.
I then equipped myself with the "Black Boots", which once again reduce movement speed and agility.
And so I started my journey back to the grand capital of Kay Kingdom...
Cranberry City...
...
The Pentagon Divine Fortress...
...
...
...
Upon arrival at the gates, I handed over my "Recommendation Letter" to the guards.
And I realized that the place stated on the letter is actually the Scholar's Academy (御书房)... and I'm going to meet the Chief of the academy! (御书房总管)
Wow, it's really like meeting an old friend again.
We basically chit-chat about all things unrelated to official matters, LOL.
And then...
The Chief asked, "Do you want to stay with me, or return to the Imperial Stables, to rejoin the ranks of the Kay Knights?"
...
...
Do you think I'm out of my mind?
Of course I said I wanted to stay in the Scholar's Academy.
...
I plead to stay there, but the decision is not up to the Chief...
"That will depends on whether the Lord of Kay Knights wants you back or not... ", she said.
...
If he don't want me back, I'll stay with the Scholar's Academy.
It will all come down to him.
But strangely, he is not-contactable at the moment.
He has gone missing in action.
...
...
I was re-enstated as a citizen of the Kay Kingdom after that... and dismissed shortly after.
...
...
Sensing how dire the situation was...
I quickly made contact with General Cougar, 1 of the 4 remaining of the 7 Generals...
...
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What will tomorrow holds?
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- Former Member of Kay Knight -
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Strangely, I felt extraordinary calm the night before, and when I woke up today.
Extraordinarily peaceful.
It's uncanny.
...
So for the first time in more than 10 months, I equipped my character with the "Emerald Armor", which instantly reduces my intellectual stat by 30.
I then equipped myself with the "Black Boots", which once again reduce movement speed and agility.
And so I started my journey back to the grand capital of Kay Kingdom...
Cranberry City...
...
The Pentagon Divine Fortress...
...
...
...
Upon arrival at the gates, I handed over my "Recommendation Letter" to the guards.
And I realized that the place stated on the letter is actually the Scholar's Academy (御书房)... and I'm going to meet the Chief of the academy! (御书房总管)
Wow, it's really like meeting an old friend again.
We basically chit-chat about all things unrelated to official matters, LOL.
And then...
The Chief asked, "Do you want to stay with me, or return to the Imperial Stables, to rejoin the ranks of the Kay Knights?"
...
...
Do you think I'm out of my mind?
Of course I said I wanted to stay in the Scholar's Academy.
...
I plead to stay there, but the decision is not up to the Chief...
"That will depends on whether the Lord of Kay Knights wants you back or not... ", she said.
...
If he don't want me back, I'll stay with the Scholar's Academy.
It will all come down to him.
But strangely, he is not-contactable at the moment.
He has gone missing in action.
...
...
I was re-enstated as a citizen of the Kay Kingdom after that... and dismissed shortly after.
...
...
Sensing how dire the situation was...
I quickly made contact with General Cougar, 1 of the 4 remaining of the 7 Generals...
...
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What will tomorrow holds?
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- Former Member of Kay Knight -
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Friday, May 08, 2009
Goodbye, NTU... ... For Now.
Today is the last day of CIDP.
And it also mark the last day of my first "academic year" at NTU...
...
And It will be a long time before I'll get to see its beautiful face again; my favourite Cafe, sleepy lecture halls, crappy lecturers, all the good and bad things... Haha...
...
...
...
Dear NTU...
It has been a long and fruitful journey.
...
It will be a long time before I'll see you again.
But I will not let myself fall into oblivion during our separation...
...
For now, I need to return to the past.
The past that I hate.
I need to go back to untie the knot that's binding me since the first day in here...
I need to retrieve the final key to free myself.
I need to write down the final chapter, the lost chapter about the Legend of Kay Kingdom...
And it will be for real this time.
...
....
I look forward to the day when I'll return to present time.
I look forward to the day where I will once again be grace by your beauty...
And I hope that the next time I board another 179...
The next time I step foot upon your sacred ground...
And the next time I opened the door to another Lecture Hall...
...
...
...
I will be a better person.
I will be a happier person.
...
...
...
Goodbye.
You will be missed.
好花不常开，好景不常在。
每次考试后，泪洒相思带。
今宵离别后，何日再回来？
过完了一年，等待另一年
能在南大几个SEM~~~不欢更何待
【来来来，放完假后再说吧。】
今宵离别后，何日再回来？
And it also mark the last day of my first "academic year" at NTU...
...
And It will be a long time before I'll get to see its beautiful face again; my favourite Cafe, sleepy lecture halls, crappy lecturers, all the good and bad things... Haha...
...
...
...
Dear NTU...
It has been a long and fruitful journey.
...
It will be a long time before I'll see you again.
But I will not let myself fall into oblivion during our separation...
...
For now, I need to return to the past.
The past that I hate.
I need to go back to untie the knot that's binding me since the first day in here...
I need to retrieve the final key to free myself.
I need to write down the final chapter, the lost chapter about the Legend of Kay Kingdom...
And it will be for real this time.
...
....
I look forward to the day when I'll return to present time.
I look forward to the day where I will once again be grace by your beauty...
And I hope that the next time I board another 179...
The next time I step foot upon your sacred ground...
And the next time I opened the door to another Lecture Hall...
...
...
...
I will be a better person.
I will be a happier person.
...
...
...
Goodbye.
You will be missed.
好花不常开，好景不常在。
每次考试后，泪洒相思带。
今宵离别后，何日再回来？
过完了一年，等待另一年
能在南大几个SEM~~~不欢更何待
【来来来，放完假后再说吧。】
今宵离别后，何日再回来？
Thursday, May 07, 2009
The Illusionary World
Maybe after living in the Nether World for so long, people no longer have a good gauge of the real world.
We tend to beautify things too much.
And we think the world out there is wonderful and flawless.
...
Until reality creeps in.
And we realized maybe the outside world is not that much different from the Nether World after all.
...
Yes, we've been glamorizing too much things.
We refused to let reality taint our perceptions of the beautiful things in our life.
We don't want the ugliness to smear the things we love so much.
And we rather be kept in the dark then to let that happen.
...
Eventually we are awakened.
...
For many things in this world are all but an illusion.
Many things in this world are superficial and hypocritical.
Many things in this world are also fake and doesn't last.
...
What is worth cherishing then?
What should we pursue in this moment that will stay with us until the end of our lives?
Why is it that when we get something, we will usually lose something else?
What if what we lost is something more important?
What if we realized we've been wasting too much time, too much effort on things that are illusionary?
Do we let it go, or do we carry on our mindless & stubborn pursue for an illusionary "beautiful ending"?
...
...
Recently, Sonja passed on after a more than 20 months battle with cancer. She gained freedom, but lost her life in the process...
But I feel happy for her to know that she's freed.
Because it's the more important thing for her.
...
...
Sometimes, I wonder why is it always the unhappy things that stays with us the longest.
The happy moments and memories in life are so easily forgotten, so easily eliminated...
Yet, the hurtful and terrible things stay for a long long time...
...
...
...
We used to say that "The Ignorant One is not guilty of a mistake"... but does it really holds true? Can the people around him really forgive him?
For most problems in this world, there's only 2 ways to solve them. Either you solve it, or you let go of it.
And many things are out of our control. (Just like Ran Ran's problem, just like Ran Ran's friend problem...)
When it is out of our control, you can either keep trying...
...
Or you just let go.
In the case of a problem that's unsolvable,
It is better to choose the latter option.
...
It is not because we're afraid. It is not because we're trying to escape. But simply because it is the right thing to do.
There are things that a righteous man must do, and there are things that he musn't.
I am not a righteous man, but I still have my own principles to adhere to.
I am not like that Red Dragon. I am not like WQ. I cannot do things the way they do. In fact, I am even more convinced that I'm doing the right thing after learning about something from them.
These are things that I will never do. Even if it means that I must be ridicule. Even if I should be held in contempt.
...
...
...
If I could, I wish I could go back to 12 months ago and start all over again.
I wished I have cherish the more important things.
I wished the Nether World hadn't turn me into what I am today.
...
...
That must be it.
I need to confront my darkest self again.
I need it to untie the knot that binds me to all the wrongs I've done.
All the people I failed to thank.
...
Yes, it is time...
It is time...
Important Note:
- You are not expected to understand this post.
- It does not refer to any single matter.
- You have a bigger chance of understanding it if you are from the Kindergarten.
- Even bigger chance if you're constantly updated with its events.
- Actually, I suggest you don't even try to understand it.
- Just enjoy how "poetic", "melancholic" and "philosophic" this story is.
We tend to beautify things too much.
And we think the world out there is wonderful and flawless.
...
Until reality creeps in.
And we realized maybe the outside world is not that much different from the Nether World after all.
...
Yes, we've been glamorizing too much things.
We refused to let reality taint our perceptions of the beautiful things in our life.
We don't want the ugliness to smear the things we love so much.
And we rather be kept in the dark then to let that happen.
...
Eventually we are awakened.
...
For many things in this world are all but an illusion.
Many things in this world are superficial and hypocritical.
Many things in this world are also fake and doesn't last.
...
What is worth cherishing then?
What should we pursue in this moment that will stay with us until the end of our lives?
Why is it that when we get something, we will usually lose something else?
What if what we lost is something more important?
What if we realized we've been wasting too much time, too much effort on things that are illusionary?
Do we let it go, or do we carry on our mindless & stubborn pursue for an illusionary "beautiful ending"?
...
...
Recently, Sonja passed on after a more than 20 months battle with cancer. She gained freedom, but lost her life in the process...
But I feel happy for her to know that she's freed.
Because it's the more important thing for her.
...
...
Sometimes, I wonder why is it always the unhappy things that stays with us the longest.
The happy moments and memories in life are so easily forgotten, so easily eliminated...
Yet, the hurtful and terrible things stay for a long long time...
...
...
...
We used to say that "The Ignorant One is not guilty of a mistake"... but does it really holds true? Can the people around him really forgive him?
For most problems in this world, there's only 2 ways to solve them. Either you solve it, or you let go of it.
And many things are out of our control. (Just like Ran Ran's problem, just like Ran Ran's friend problem...)
When it is out of our control, you can either keep trying...
...
Or you just let go.
In the case of a problem that's unsolvable,
It is better to choose the latter option.
...
It is not because we're afraid. It is not because we're trying to escape. But simply because it is the right thing to do.
There are things that a righteous man must do, and there are things that he musn't.
I am not a righteous man, but I still have my own principles to adhere to.
I am not like that Red Dragon. I am not like WQ. I cannot do things the way they do. In fact, I am even more convinced that I'm doing the right thing after learning about something from them.
These are things that I will never do. Even if it means that I must be ridicule. Even if I should be held in contempt.
...
...
...
If I could, I wish I could go back to 12 months ago and start all over again.
I wished I have cherish the more important things.
I wished the Nether World hadn't turn me into what I am today.
...
...
That must be it.
I need to confront my darkest self again.
I need it to untie the knot that binds me to all the wrongs I've done.
All the people I failed to thank.
...
Yes, it is time...
It is time...
Important Note:
- You are not expected to understand this post.
- It does not refer to any single matter.
- You have a bigger chance of understanding it if you are from the Kindergarten.
- Even bigger chance if you're constantly updated with its events.
- Actually, I suggest you don't even try to understand it.
- Just enjoy how "poetic", "melancholic" and "philosophic" this story is.
Sunday, May 03, 2009
Jinnai Tomonori!
Recently came across this Japanese Comedian, who I find extremely entertaining.
Basically, he performs a series of short skits on common daily activities. However, some extraordinary and amazing events always happen.
And it is darn hilarious.
I can laugh over and over again at his skits, Haha!
Introducing some of the nicer ones I've seen...
Puyo Puyo - Good for starters... very funny and self-explanatory.
Super Parrot - This one is really funny, especially if you can understand a bit of Japanese. (E.g Good Evening, Car, Mother, etc...)
Zombie Shooting Game - You can win if you insert 500 yen. LOL!
Proposal - This is so sweet... Haha. The ending is the best.
Driving Center Simulation - This is one of my favourite... Just awesome. Bonus if you play Mario Kart.
Basically, he performs a series of short skits on common daily activities. However, some extraordinary and amazing events always happen.
And it is darn hilarious.
I can laugh over and over again at his skits, Haha!
Introducing some of the nicer ones I've seen...
Puyo Puyo - Good for starters... very funny and self-explanatory.
Super Parrot - This one is really funny, especially if you can understand a bit of Japanese. (E.g Good Evening, Car, Mother, etc...)
Zombie Shooting Game - You can win if you insert 500 yen. LOL!
Proposal - This is so sweet... Haha. The ending is the best.
Driving Center Simulation - This is one of my favourite... Just awesome. Bonus if you play Mario Kart.
Friday, May 01, 2009
Best Song Of 2008 Awards
哟!
大家好!
第四届咯!
其实近年来已经越来越少接触音乐了。。。所以听过的歌真的是有限，就连以前一直追听的 “933龙虎榜” 也已经一年多没听了。。。
这次是第一次用华文来 “主持” 这个 “年度音乐盛帖"，感觉还蛮不错地~
因为已经很久没有用华文写这么长的 “作文” 了。。。所以请多多指教。。
大概介绍一下。。。
年度金曲? 到底是什么东东来的？
1。 这是一个小弟个人认为在一整年中，发行的中文流行歌曲中最好听的的十首。
2。 这是一个 “个人最爱名单” (personal favourite list)，唯一的考量是我有多喜这首歌和它对我来说有多耐听。“人气”，“歌手多红”，“我喜不喜欢该歌手”等将不被略为考量。
3。 注意这个名单只局限于到目前为止我所听过的歌。没听过的我也没办法。当然，红的歌我听过的机率会比较大。。。
4。 虽然十首歌里面还是有一些比其它的好听，不过大致上这个名单是“排名不分先后”的。。。不然会很乱。
5。“荣誉榜”是我认为很不错的歌，有些是那种 “几乎可以” 进入十大里面的。
好，大概就这样!
开始咯!
2008 年十大金曲!
10。 明天以后 [国] - (林峰，泳儿)
虽然没听说过是“虾米郎”，不过算是我在近年来听过少数比较像样的对唱曲。我想改成国语后可能歌词会有点“怪怪”吧。。。不过大致上算很好听，歌曲的情境表达得很好。。。就是说两个变成朋友的情人 ：(
9。 伯乐 (林宥嘉)
我的评语就是副歌很好听！ 主歌部分就还好，没什么特别喜欢。。。不过林宥嘉的声音真的很特别，很喜欢他唱副歌时候的“独特味道”。。。
还有，伯乐的MV很特别哦。。。有人能解释MV的结局吗？好像每个人的见解都不大
一样。
8。 神秘嘉宾 (林宥嘉)
跟上一首比起来，这个比较平均一点。。。如果说上一首主歌 (Verse) 和副歌 (Chorus) 部分分别是B跟A，那这首应该两个都是B+。哈哈。
很喜欢最后一句，“友情客串却留下刻骨铭心，的回忆。” 好棒的词!
7。 草戒指 (神木与瞳)
很喜欢从前面慢慢酝酿到后面情绪爆发，很激动的感觉。。。整首歌听起来就是很HIGH。。。
神木与瞳两个人唱的重叠部分搭得很好，真的是大大加分!
由其是 “到最后~~~~(该不该回头)” ，接的太帅了~~~
6。搞笑 (罗志祥)
真的是 A 级的 CHORUS 啦! 副歌的歌词真的是太完美了。。。
尤其是 “我在搞笑，借着热闹掩盖着心跳。。。。。。当人群散了， 突然觉得我可以死掉”。
好多男人的心声啊。。。为了面子，为了尊严， 只能在别人面前当作若无其事的样子。。。其实内心的痛苦只有自己知道。。。：(
真的很感人。。。很喜欢副歌部分有三段不同的歌词。唯一的 “败笔” 就是我觉得它的VERSE的歌词有点 “普通”， 很 “平凡” 。。。
什么“牙膏在对我傻笑”，“碗盘多买了一套”。。。虽然有讲到故事情感，可是我觉得应该可以不要用这样具体的情节。 又不是每个人有养狗。。。为什么要花一整段主歌在说那只小狗很伤心。
这是我个人的感觉啦。。。
5。 坏人 (方炯镔)
跟上面的一样。。。CHORUS 的词+旋律真的是无敌。。。
尤其是最后的 “宁愿爱一点不剩， 也不忍， 看恋人爱成路人”。。。
太厉害了。。。
我真的很不想当坏人啊。。。
4。 安静了 (S.H.E)
虽然我觉得它的词有点 “乱来”。。。有点 “ROJAK” 的感觉 (就是一大堆东西全部丢进去)。。。
不过旋律真的很好听。。。而且BUILDUP很好。。。我最喜欢这种慢慢越来越“大声“，越来越澎湃的感觉。
3。 说好的幸福呢 (周杰伦)
副歌真的太好听了啦! 三个字三个字酱。。。很有感觉~
第一次听到旋律就很喜欢。。。不过那时候根本不知道周杰伦在唱什么东东。。。
后来看到歌词就更喜欢。。。不过可能 “说好的A+呢” 略胜半筹。。。LOL。
开什么玩笑。。。
2。 知道 (郭静)
不是很红。。。不过真的超好听! 可惜没有一个像样的MV。。。
真的是超级喜欢它的词: 很简单，但却很感人；
喜欢上一个 “在他心目中你不是最好” 的人的痛苦，的悲哀。。。
爱情就是这样没道理， 不是你付出越多就会得到越多。。。
“ 我知道做的和她没有不同， 但是我却不在你心中逗留 ”
“ 我知道我比她付出的还多， 可是我在你心中没有她多 ”
1。 不药而愈 (郭静)
如上。
这首我最少PLAY了200多次以上了。。。
还是觉得很好听, 还是觉得很感人。副歌真的是好听到没话说。。。
最喜欢那句：“ 明明说好是两个人 一起去的旅行， 怎么剩下我一个人欣赏孤寂~~~ ”
荣誉榜 (Honorable Mentions)
1. 沿海公路的出口 (S.H.E)
2. 带我走 (杨丞琳)
3. 下一个天亮 (郭静)
4. 改嫁 (林宇中)
大家好!
第四届咯!
其实近年来已经越来越少接触音乐了。。。所以听过的歌真的是有限，就连以前一直追听的 “933龙虎榜” 也已经一年多没听了。。。
这次是第一次用华文来 “主持” 这个 “年度音乐盛帖"，感觉还蛮不错地~
因为已经很久没有用华文写这么长的 “作文” 了。。。所以请多多指教。。
大概介绍一下。。。
年度金曲? 到底是什么东东来的？
1。 这是一个小弟个人认为在一整年中，发行的中文流行歌曲中最好听的的十首。
2。 这是一个 “个人最爱名单” (personal favourite list)，唯一的考量是我有多喜这首歌和它对我来说有多耐听。“人气”，“歌手多红”，“我喜不喜欢该歌手”等将不被略为考量。
3。 注意这个名单只局限于到目前为止我所听过的歌。没听过的我也没办法。当然，红的歌我听过的机率会比较大。。。
4。 虽然十首歌里面还是有一些比其它的好听，不过大致上这个名单是“排名不分先后”的。。。不然会很乱。
5。“荣誉榜”是我认为很不错的歌，有些是那种 “几乎可以” 进入十大里面的。
好，大概就这样!
开始咯!
2008 年十大金曲!
10。 明天以后 [国] - (林峰，泳儿)
虽然没听说过是“虾米郎”，不过算是我在近年来听过少数比较像样的对唱曲。我想改成国语后可能歌词会有点“怪怪”吧。。。不过大致上算很好听，歌曲的情境表达得很好。。。就是说两个变成朋友的情人 ：(
9。 伯乐 (林宥嘉)
我的评语就是副歌很好听！ 主歌部分就还好，没什么特别喜欢。。。不过林宥嘉的声音真的很特别，很喜欢他唱副歌时候的“独特味道”。。。
还有，伯乐的MV很特别哦。。。有人能解释MV的结局吗？好像每个人的见解都不大
一样。
8。 神秘嘉宾 (林宥嘉)
跟上一首比起来，这个比较平均一点。。。如果说上一首主歌 (Verse) 和副歌 (Chorus) 部分分别是B跟A，那这首应该两个都是B+。哈哈。
很喜欢最后一句，“友情客串却留下刻骨铭心，的回忆。” 好棒的词!
7。 草戒指 (神木与瞳)
很喜欢从前面慢慢酝酿到后面情绪爆发，很激动的感觉。。。整首歌听起来就是很HIGH。。。
神木与瞳两个人唱的重叠部分搭得很好，真的是大大加分!
由其是 “到最后~~~~(该不该回头)” ，接的太帅了~~~
6。搞笑 (罗志祥)
真的是 A 级的 CHORUS 啦! 副歌的歌词真的是太完美了。。。
尤其是 “我在搞笑，借着热闹掩盖着心跳。。。。。。当人群散了， 突然觉得我可以死掉”。
好多男人的心声啊。。。为了面子，为了尊严， 只能在别人面前当作若无其事的样子。。。其实内心的痛苦只有自己知道。。。：(
真的很感人。。。很喜欢副歌部分有三段不同的歌词。唯一的 “败笔” 就是我觉得它的VERSE的歌词有点 “普通”， 很 “平凡” 。。。
什么“牙膏在对我傻笑”，“碗盘多买了一套”。。。虽然有讲到故事情感，可是我觉得应该可以不要用这样具体的情节。 又不是每个人有养狗。。。为什么要花一整段主歌在说那只小狗很伤心。
这是我个人的感觉啦。。。
5。 坏人 (方炯镔)
跟上面的一样。。。CHORUS 的词+旋律真的是无敌。。。
尤其是最后的 “宁愿爱一点不剩， 也不忍， 看恋人爱成路人”。。。
太厉害了。。。
我真的很不想当坏人啊。。。
4。 安静了 (S.H.E)
虽然我觉得它的词有点 “乱来”。。。有点 “ROJAK” 的感觉 (就是一大堆东西全部丢进去)。。。
不过旋律真的很好听。。。而且BUILDUP很好。。。我最喜欢这种慢慢越来越“大声“，越来越澎湃的感觉。
3。 说好的幸福呢 (周杰伦)
副歌真的太好听了啦! 三个字三个字酱。。。很有感觉~
第一次听到旋律就很喜欢。。。不过那时候根本不知道周杰伦在唱什么东东。。。
后来看到歌词就更喜欢。。。不过可能 “说好的A+呢” 略胜半筹。。。LOL。
开什么玩笑。。。
2。 知道 (郭静)
不是很红。。。不过真的超好听! 可惜没有一个像样的MV。。。
真的是超级喜欢它的词: 很简单，但却很感人；
喜欢上一个 “在他心目中你不是最好” 的人的痛苦，的悲哀。。。
爱情就是这样没道理， 不是你付出越多就会得到越多。。。
“ 我知道做的和她没有不同， 但是我却不在你心中逗留 ”
“ 我知道我比她付出的还多， 可是我在你心中没有她多 ”
1。 不药而愈 (郭静)
如上。
这首我最少PLAY了200多次以上了。。。
还是觉得很好听, 还是觉得很感人。副歌真的是好听到没话说。。。
最喜欢那句：“ 明明说好是两个人 一起去的旅行， 怎么剩下我一个人欣赏孤寂~~~ ”
荣誉榜 (Honorable Mentions)
1. 沿海公路的出口 (S.H.E)
2. 带我走 (杨丞琳)
3. 下一个天亮 (郭静)
4. 改嫁 (林宇中)
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