100 Days Left... ???

Wow... is this a dream?

Am I really that close already?

A long time ago, I didn't even dare to think about it. I didn't even believe I could see this day coming. I told myself, how nice would it be if I could just fast forward the time.

Now, the day have finally arrived...

2 Days ago, I finally received the confirmation.

AFTER NEARLY 6 MONTHS, 6 FRIGGING LONG MONTHS, OF AGONIZING & DOUBTFUL WAIT....

IT'S FINALLY CONFIRMED, IT'S FINALLY APPROVED, IT'S FINALLY FINALIZED.

No more "in process", no more "one more week", no more uncertainties, no more worries~

It's like a huge burden lifted from my shoulders, and I was overjoyed when I saw the notice.

If my calculation doesn't fail me, the difference should be 37 days.

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And now...

For those people that "blame" me for doing this, for the people "advising" me not to, for those saying that I'm very "jian", etc... I don't know what to say.

Truthfully speaking, you think this is what I want?

You think I am so 'song' to be able to push my actual date till next year?

You think I would be happy to see those that went in later than me, actually leaving earlier than me?

You think I want to do this, if I can choose not to?

If you really think so, then my friend...

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You are very wrong.

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The truth is that I have no other choice. If I don't make the decision I did, I would have to wait 365 - 37 = 328 days.

THREE HUNDRED, TWENTY EIGHT DAYS.

Yes. 328 days wasted for 37 days. I don't see what other better choice I could have made.

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I don't know how I'll feel on that day, leaving with these 37 days left. They're like thin strings attached to a kite. As long as all the strings are not totally cut off, the kite would never truly be free. I can soar into the skies earlier, but I would still have those tiny chains binding me. It's not the same as being truly free.

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But well, to not sound so depressing...

For now, I will simply strike off the 37 days from the books.

For now, let me forget that these 37 days exists.

For now, just let me buried these 37 days deep underground, until the day they're ready to be freed.

Until the day all the strings are ready to be cut.

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For now, just let me live in the illusion~

In the illusion that 63 days from now would be the actual day.

Let me enjoy that moment. Let me experience the euphoria.

I've also worked almost 700 days for that moment.

Please don't deny me of that right.

Please don't deny me of that joy.