As far as I can remember, there were 3 extremely difficult period in my life - some of the lowest point of my life. They are:
End 2006
The dreaded Island of Darkness. It's easy to look back at it now and shrug it off, but it was REALLY depressing at that point of time, and it felt like it would never end.
I think it's something many can relate to, but it was especially worse for me. It was physically, mentally and spiritually draining. It was depressing when you think of going back to the terrible place.
And this is still something I detest to this date.
Sometime Around 2009 - 2010
This was really a crisis period to me.
I felt like I was going crazy. I was very emotional, overly-sensitive, have random spurts of sadness and some crazy mood swings. I went back to look at some of the stuff I wrote during that period, and yeah, it was hilarious looking at it now.
But trust me, it was scary back then. Really scary.
To put it simply, it can be summarized with this post.
Mid 2015 Till Now
I already had that sense of de-javu back at the beginning of the year.
I think somehow, the cells in my body were already warning me in advance: "Hey, this is something you've experienced before. Something really bad."
I should have done something back then, but hindsight is 20/20. I continued my foolish ways.
And then it crashes hard onto me during the middle of the year.
Almost the same exact shit as 2009-2010 period again. What's worse this time round is having workplace problems compounding the agony.
To be honest, I really felt like throwing in the towel.
Just screw everything - but I held on.
Perseverance.
Everything I am enduring now is for the greater plan. For my future.
...
Thankfully, I've had some "prior experience", and hopefully, I'll be able to tide over this period faster.
So what have I learned from all these?
Time is the greatest healer.
No matter how bad the current circumstances are, it will come to pass.
And one day you will be able to look back upon it and laugh.
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