Ben 21st Birthday...

Just came back from the gathering... minor gathering.

Actually it wouldn't be so minor if everyone attends. Too bad stupid Zhi Wei and Meng Zhi... only know how to fly aeroplane...

Haha... actually I also almost couldn't go (or would be very late), but luckily the event was brought forward and everything was wrapped up on time.

Anyway... nothing much... just eat dinner together at Waraku (I think that's how you spell it... and I really don't like Japanese food). Do a bit of catching up... like how's everyone doing and talk about old times... Of course Xuan Jie couldn't resist turning up in his No.4 to "show off"... LOL. Spent about 1 hour plus there. After the birthday song/cake...they went to Minds...

Unfortunately, as much as I wanted to join them, my brain tells me not to... because I have the "you know what" tomorrow. And It is one of the toughest ones... so I have definitely need the rest to prevent myself from dying.

Haiz... that's how it is... hard to get everyone together again. Especially for the guys. Your time is no longer "your time". "Your time" is being controlled by others.

Whew...tired liao. Time to sleep~

Judgment Day Is Upon Us...

A lot of things happened. Lot of things... don't know where to begin...

Sometimes, when you have experienced the good things of life for so long, it's really hard to give up what you have. You just... can't let go. You can't help but feel that it's unfair, it's ridiculous, it's the "end of the world" that all these things that you once took for granted... all taken from you. It's literally tearing off part of your soul.

Imagine you became a millionaire overnight from a penniless man. You began to indulge in a all the good luxuries of life. Homes, cars, food... You seem to have endless wealth. Then half a year later, you became penniless again in an instant. How would you feel?

I think it's the same thing we're experiencing here. A great loss. A terrible loss. A loss we probably couldn't live with...

Whether it's justifiable or not... not for me to say. But I am really greatly affected by this. I've don't feel like continuing on. Maybe time will let me come into terms with this change.

Judgment Day will arrive on August...let's enjoy the last of our good days, OK?

Crashed!

They say lightning doesn't strike the same spot twice...

Bullshit.

It's a "Series of Unfortunate Events"...

I just experienced one of the greatest horror of my life. I was so helpless and shocked for that 5 minute I swore I would have did anything to get it back... Anyway, this is a very important lesson to me. Only Edwin knows about this event and I guess I'll keep it that way...

My 2nd shock came after I reached home that day. Geez...7th July 2007, and this kind of CRAP happens. I think windows corrupted or what... whole HD died. I booked a cab and "chiong" down to Sim Lim immediately to find Dong.

Luckily I managed to preserve 90 plus percent of my data. Only those in the C drive partition couldn't be retrieve (and luckily I never put much things there). Brought a Portable H/D to backup my data. I've been doing all my backups on slow DVD-RWs.. .which I think is the main reason why I am so lazy to backup. Takes too long. So I decided to get 1 and backup regularly in the future liao...

Sibeh Heng...If all my data disappear, I will really CRY.... All my videos, pictures, MCs, my configuration, the important data...

After saving my disk, went to shop around Sim Lim... Couldn't resist the temptation to pick up a stone... going home that time saw Si Rong. Heh. He haven't enlist yet... can laugh at him soon.

Anyway, yesterday was what "Green Earth" day... and everyone is encouraged to wear green. But I'm already wearing Green almost every day.

Morale At All Time Low...

We're like...almost hitting the pit already. Just one more hit and we'll be at rock bottom. We cannot take any blows anymore... The next one will kill us...

My temper is also getting very very bad nowadays due to sleep deprivation. I get pissed off over the smallest thing and am constantly in a very moody state. I don't feel like talking anyone (especially once I reach home)...

Even though I know it's not right, I still can't control it. When I reach home, I just want to throw away everything and indulge in my own things. Please, DO NOT DISTURB ME.

A Lost Art?

Wooo...quite high today, cause there's a breakthrough.

After neglecting doing it for so long, I really had doubts about my ability, as well as his ability to perform the act properly...

But he did! I am so happy. It's the first time I managed to complete the entire session with any major screw ups.

There's still some minor hiccups but the entire thing is "not bad". So happy~